5 years to-go

22/3/2016: i write this.
22/3/2021: i'll read it again and compare


....it's been time i have been a lecturer. this end of year, i will go for Aussie to further my PhD. 4 years on being a lecturer, is actually a very tough routine. life must go on. dont ask about engineer career, never! it breaks even deeper than before.

i live with mom and dad, as a non-married lady, i prefer to stay with them. we live happily in my own house. yeah!a bigger house.. and can said that most of my pocket money are invested towards the house. the big house are always in silent, until somedays kakak and dakha bring their children here.


kakak married to a man, son of papa's friend. kakak doesnt like him at first. but now they live happily. that what people said Tuah Ayam nampak di kaki, tuah manusia siapa yang tahu. They have 2 children. a boy and an annoying princess. yeah, she's annoying. i hate her the most. hahaha

dakha married to her best friend, they live happily with 3 kids. All boys. looks very alike. ebi love play with them. sometimes, ebi bring them watching movies, they call him "Uncle Ebi". ebi is now still studying his degree in engineering. we dont really know that he is actually quite good.

soya.. a best buddies, she's getting busy nowadays. she's just deliver a new baby. the 3rd. She married after she finished her degree. tak sangka, a friend who she admire a lot, does love her a lot too.  they're unique. soya looks better now. zero worry and no longer serabut. she's a teacher. she's teaching in a polytechnic. all her dream come true. we dont really dating now. she's staying outside melaka, and if dia balik kampung pun.. we dont really meet each other. i mean, she does having another commitment too. and we cant expect life will be as simpler as we're studying.


saujanas, syila marrying her boyfriend, almost three years this month. not yet have kids, they tried a lot. takpelah, maybe it's not the time yet. harap syila can be sabar sedikit. bella married to mus last year. kahwin jugak dorang tuh. she's waited him so long kot. and now they living in Japan since Mus has his commitment there. betu2 jepun dah minah bella tu sekarang. Nora, last time i met her, it was Hari Raya. she's now are no more like before, she become talkative and happy.. she married to her classmate. aku dah agak dah.. budak ni layan dia extra sangat.. aku dah agak dah..mommy now have one child. lelaki.. very cute. very takative. very annoying sama macam mamy. baby? she;s still single.. tulah kau biij, memilih sangat nak muka acah acah rangga.. akhirnya serangga pun takde nak melekat kat kau bijj kahkahkahkah.. haziqah is the first one getting married among us. she's having two kids now. both are girls. so sweet. last time i met her, is on her wedding day, selainnya aku usha dalam insta je. andd insta is still up now taw. masih lagi digunakan sebagai alat mengapelod gambau2 lagakan manusia.. hahaha. masyi is not yet marry, but will be mrrying her boyfriend end of this year. apalah, aku nak pergi aussie kau sebok nak kawen.. pleaselah cepatkan untuk aku.. cannah? haha



i have lost-contact to most of my friend. kalau ade pun, yang masih layan twitter. sometimes aku rasa bosan gak sorang.. tapi sometimes, aku rasa semak pulak beramai.. papa plan so many weddings for me, but i objected all of them. i happy to be alone, for now or for at least another 5 years. maybe

an actress

ladies and gentlemen,

it's March! woot woot~ basically, I've been celebrating my granpa birthday... Happy Birthday to the most gentle and loving man. I pray everything for you.

and

it's my 4th month of working here. Working in an investment company, which is cannot be easy as ever. and it's time for second semester too!! yuhhuu~~ (lepaks everyday)(lepastu marah sebab miskin)(lepastu lepak lagi..)(but i see connections thru us, alhamdulillah)(susah kot, aku nak mengekalkan momentum ini... hahah, whattatooya?)


so

as many peoples been asking..yeah, i work and i study. i do both. why? well of course, my explanation is soooo long and until you find my entry wasn't that interesting sudaaahhh.. hahaha lagipun, its about three quarter of my classmates are working too. many of them are of course engineers. some are lecturers, some are managers, and truly said, some own their own company. wau!

i am just a little management trainee in a huge building, working for a very nice and beautiful GM. doing investment is something hard for me, i dont really know basics. i go for study but i dont really grab it good. but well, my boss helps me a lot.

after 5, i killed the traffic, run away to go for my class which is exactly 20km apart from office. hmm, looks near dont ya? but well, traffic wasted all the time..20km, i'll be there to class at 6:30pm. andd hurray, i have to turn my brain to adapt engineering subject baack!

sometimes, something up in office, so i go to class with a swing moods. sometimes, i get praises, and i go class with a beautiful smile face. sometimes, i am so hungry like cannot wait for the class end, sometimes i really sleepy, and you can see me BERtasbih di dalam kelas. ( play mobile phone). worst case, migraine, em.. well.. i try attend the class fiirst, until i find myself sleeping in surau or on my bed.. kahkah

to turn my brain for adapting two different things, is of course a big problem. but sometimes, i do neglect both. haha. but, deep.. i know i love engineering even more. not saying investment is boring, but you know.. people have their own abilities,kan...

so.. am I a part time worker or a part time student? Both are wrong, because both are part times for me. I am on my full time in living my own life..

im taking this two careers as a character, wearing office suits and make up from the morning, and turnn to be a very messy teenage students after five! what a 180 character i'm having..

happiness, believe me.. when you're doing what you want and what you believe you can, you definitely will feel more energized and functioned. and with all the hearts, you will feel happiness. well, i called satisfaction as happiness.

yes, i lost most of my time, no time for movies and lepaks until late night, because i really need to sleep early, but i know.. Allah knows what the best for me. aku tengok marathon masa weekend! hahaha :D


and folks, one ques.. will you please dont ask me

" Penat tak?"

because i dont have the answer.