final exam moods?

okayy. assalamualaikum to all my readers.ahaha okayy.. i dont know why am i writting this entry.my fnal exam starts on wednesday and it is dynamics paper. so, i am supposed to study like gila gila as dynamics is seriously hard to understand.

the problem is, i cant really get studying.. i am not in mood yet. but then, i still have to study, as it is FINAL man!!!!! thousands trials had been done, but still im not in mood yet. perhaps, aura pemalas had been flow in my body and it have cover about 95% of my blood vessels.

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how am i gonna to fix this. i really cant handle this. 

al fatihah

al fatihah buat arwah Tok Ngah yang kembali ke rahmatullah Sabtu 22/12/2012.

miza sayang Tok Ngah sangat2.

sedih dengan pemergian ini.

semoga roh ditempatkan bersama orang2 yang dikasihi Allah.

Al Fatihah. 

pasar malam duyong

okayy.. salamualikum buat semua follower aku yang membaca entry yang tak seberapa ini. korang bakal membuang 5-10 minit korang demi entry aku, so.. trimas semua! okayy,semalam aku dengan kawan2 aku menerjah pasar malam yang berada nun jauh di duyong.. huyaiii.. main jauh aku menyesatkan diri.. kiteorang merempit beramai2 ke sana . dan disebabkan aku mempunyai tahap kemahiran membawa motor yang cemerlang.. maka dengan itu, aku terpaksa lah membonceng Bella Belot *aku memang suka bonceng dia, sebab die bawak motor bukan tenngah2 jalan.. bagus! * yang merupakan seorang minah motor kampung dia! *okay, aku bukan tade lesen okayy.. aku ade! L! tapi atas phobia yang melanda diri aku ini... huiii, nanti jelah aku sambung belajar sekolah motor ni lagi..* dah merempit jauh ke sana, aku pun sampai dengan perasaan batak menggunung, menjelajahi satu persatu kawasan taklukan di pasar malam itu, semua kedai aku ushar harga, semua peniaga aku aim orang die. yelah, kalau hensem, sedap.. baru beli! hahaha. :D

okay, masa aku melawat kawasan taklukan aku itu bersama rakan2 menteri yang lain, aku ternampak beberapa orang memohon bantuan di situ.. yang paling aku sedih, melihat seorang macik tua, duduk.. memegang tin biskut dibaluti kertas putih, memohon sumbangan ikhlas supaya die boleh menjalani rawatan haemodialisis. Ya Rabb. sampai begitu die sanggup lakkan, demi sejumlah wang, untuk meneruskan kehidupan. dan, kalau kita fikir2 kan semula.. takkan seorang manusia, semudah itu, sanggup duduk di hadapan khalayak orang meminta simpati, untuk sejumlah wang? ternyata, macik itu benar dalam kesusahan.. dah tiada cara lain lagi yang boleh dilakukan.. lama aku tenung macik tu. aku lemparkan senyuman padanya. aku nak sapa, aku ta pandai na beramah mesra ni.sungguh, aku bersimpati pada dia.

yang aku bertambah kecewa lagi...apabila aku mula berfikir, kemana anak2 macik itu..? takkan lah mereka tak mahu membantu, atau semudah itu mereka membenarkan ibu mereka duduk memohon simpati ada orang lain? Ya Allah, benar aku menyumpah, jika benar..anak2 dia bersikap sedemikian. tapi.. aku try to control my self. mungkin mereka benar2 dalam kesusahan, mungkin.


Allah, berikanlah mereka kemudahan, agar kemudahan itu membantu mereka ke jalanmu. berilah mereka kesihatan, agar kesihatan itu membawa mereka terus sujud kepadaMu. berikan mereka kebahagiaan, agar hati mereka tenang disisimu.


dan hati aku membuak marah, bila ade seorang pacik lelaki, sihat walaafiat, memohon jasa baik orang ramai, untuk penubuhan apetah, aku tatahu. dan memang aku tamahu tahu. aku memang pantang, kalau nampak orang yg sihat, boleh bekerja.. tetapi mengambil keputusan untuk berdiri terpacak, mengendong tabung , untuk mencari wang? zaman era ini, orang buta.. sanggup menyanyi, mengurut, membersih kasut, mengajar, berpesatuan atau  kerja Kentucky untuk cari duit halal.. masakan kamu yang serba lengkap, hanya mampu berdiri dan mengendong tabung?

" kalau kita kerja untuk Dia, Dia akan bantu kita. kita kata tuhan itu ada, tapi kita bertindak macam dia tak ada.. " -abg jas, penyelia kelas latihan silat cekak malaysia UTeM.

la ilaha ilallah... tiada tuhan melainkan Allah. padanya aku mendoakan mereka yang memerlukan, mendapat prihatinannya.

lost of LOVE,
miezamohamed.

couple? not trending.

 this is seriously awesome. thanks Anwar Hadi. #funny #usefull and GREAT! entry :) 

so, i decide to share it through my blog, as i dont think it is a good way to share it through facebook as it would break people's heart. so, anyone who interested to read, boleh click kat entry ini!

have fun!

LOST of love <3 p="p">miezamohamed.

congrate adek.

salamualaikum. what's up y'all. okayy, sorry.. i really dont have enough time untuk update ini belog. okay, just wanna wish my adek Congratulations, for  have a kinda-good result for UPSR. *walaupun you sangat malas, but, now.. we al know yang you rupanya taklah seteruk mana! haha :)

so baby, wish you luck in your life outgoing. next year, you're gonna to enter secondary school. so, be a good boy and always listen to me! haha. ok, listen to mummy, teachers and me.. haha. iloveyou. and please stop ask mommy to buy you present. when i'm on your age, i didnt get anything for my -better-than-you-result! byebye FREAK!

lostoflove,
MIEZAMOHAMED

Space Fair 2012

03 Nov 2012

i skip my English Professional Workshop just to attend the meeting at Planetarium. i was really think the meeting gonna takes only in couples of hour. first, we have briefed by the planetarium staff, they show us how the fair is going by explanation and experience before. #the NASA team do come to Malaysia 2 years before for  the Space Fair#then, they introduce us all the scientist from NASA. i was so exciting to see them. they are seriously look talented. the team leader, Miss Jaya then introduce them again and inform us what's section each of them are. when she introduce Mr Paulo, i was so excited to hear that he is a robotic engineer. it is the very first time in my life to meet an engineer from NASA! that's was amazing! after all the introductions, we have to choose which group that we want to join. i would like to join either Robotics or Rocket Team at first, but i have so many curiosity about planets and the space. so, i dont know which group i supposed to choose. while thinking in mute, all of sudden Miss Jaya point her finger to me and said : how about you, joining the robots team? and a big smile was created on my lips! AWESOME! mechanical student should be in this team!! yeah~~ *\o/* #cheers! then, i replied : YEAH, I'M FINE WITH IT!

then i go and join the team. Paulo did introduce himself, then, everybody in the team introduce themselves too.
1. brother Ibrahim, Mechatronics
2. brother Asyraf, Mechatronics
3. brother Parvint, Electric
4. brother Zakariya, Electric
5. sister Aida, Robotic
6. sister Shimaa, Wireless
7. sister Asniza, Wireless
8. me- Hamizah, the only Mechanical student. #youngest!
 it is really great to have this team, they are very knowledgeable and pretty awesome. a simple cheers are formed.

Paulo then show us the section that we have to conduct along the fair first, then he show us the rover-which-looks-like-curiosity in the VIP room. woahhh~~ i'm the first person in Malaysia who control the rover! *excited,excited* next, Paulo brief us about the curiosity. he did show us his presentation and some slide and pictures about curiosity and its mission.

04 Nov 2012

awww mann!! why they dont inform me the meeting earlier! it is Sunday, so i came late to the meeting. anyway, we are just have some briefing by the facilitator leader, brother Bunny and Q&A session with Paulo. then, asyilah, bella and me spent all night long to do the tag for all the facilitators with brother Bunny and brother Munir. :)

05 Nov 2012

BBM status : Space Fair Day 1, Excited!

it is the Monday. The first day of Melaka Space Fair 2012. i was so excited. today, i was introduced to the boebots and a computer programming named Basic (owned by company Parallax). Paulo taught me all this! whoaa~~ there are two tables and we do decorate it like the Mars surface. yeah, Paulo did it first, we are just helping him to let the surface of mars looks bigger .

there are many school, kindergarten and families visit the planetarium. i was being so happy to brief them about Curiosity. they are excited to do those activities in our section.

ohh! i forgot to tell you guys~~ there are two activities conducted at our section. the first one is the rovers. we show how curiosity works on Mars, which is full of rocks. so, visitors have to pretend as rocks, as they have to lay down on the carpet (like a superman) and let the rover to pass their bodies.
the second one is where we show them how the NASA conduct curiosity from the Earth. this is very exciting, as the visitors have to measure and conduct the ways for the robot to go. but if it too many visitors, we just let them conduct it automatically by using controller.

day 1 is very exciting!. i have fun trough out the day.

06 Nov 2012

BBM status : Space Fair Day 2, excited

 i eat my breakfast and go straight to the section. what i am thinking is only..... " OHMAIII!!! solid mechanics' test are tonight!!!" actually, i do love solid mechanics. the lecturer is good! but, to attend a test of this subject, i do have thousands of problems! one f it is : i dont really remember the formula! so, i went back to hostel early,(at 3pm) and try to remember all the formula. (which is i believed, it's doesnt work at all)

HAJIME! ( 'start now' in japan). i opened the test question paper. and, OMG! there are so many question to answer. its really look like a final exam question! and it is really really,really *times three thousand* hard! and i dont know how i make it. just if i am lucky enough, i'll get some marks for my calculations. InsyaAllah.

after test, i went to Majlis Ijazah Tamat (Graduation Day -kinda of) for my martial art. i am now at the Tamat (final) level of learning silat ( Malay martial art). so, i came back to hostel very late at night.

07 Nov 2012
BBM status : Space Fair Day 3,kinda sleepy

after eating breakfast, i go straight to section and meet Paulo, he asked me whether i get enough sleep or not. well, he quite caring about conditions of the team mates. i mean, very caring. i told him about going back late because of  my martial art event. i told him about Malaysia's martial art, which is called 'silat'. He asked me to teach him, and i answer it with a big laugh and nodded head.

it is so many visitors today! many schools and kindergartens come to planetarium. we dont really have time to sit down, but still.. while waiting them to watch the 3D, we did taught Paulo the Sumazau dance ( lead by sister Aida), then Paulo taught us Salsa Dance. he dance gracefully with sister Aida :) *impressed* . one moment later, we did learn Gangnam Style together from youtube. Paulo seems so excited to do the dance, just maybe the dance looks easier after we learned the steps.

then, Paulo has to go back to hotel to suit up, for the Opening Ceremony. he looks great with suit. we do take picture with team in front of the Planetarium. Then, the Mayor come inside the Planetarium to visit each of the section. i am very proud to help Paulo to explain about robots to the Mayor. the Mayor looks enjoying the robots too.

08 Nov 2012

BBM status : Space Fair Day 4, kinda tired but happy

emm.. the NASA team is not here today, they are going to Kuala Lumpur for their event with the alumni of MIT. so, today, the Planetarium is very quiet. less visitors coming. maybe they know that the NASA team is not here today. anyway, our section is still open and the message about curiosity is still passed to the visitors.

09 Nov 2012

BBM status : Space Fair, Day 5, First Busiest Day

today is Friday. i walk alone to station. then i went to the VIP room to get all the robots. and then Paulo came and helps me to put the robots at their position. we were informed by the officers that today gonna be very busy.many students and families will visit the Planetarium. while waiting for the visitors, Paulo did told us about his trip to Kuala Lumpur. he told us about his experience on the KLCC sky bridge and he did shows us the pictures in his cellphone.

after working for all day long, we have some fun, bring Paulo to Bowling alley near to the Planetarium. it was seriously fun to have games together with the team. then,  we go for late dinner at Pizza Hut near to Ayer Keroh. LOTS of pizzas are ordered. NOM..NOM..NOM. *hungry monster turns tame after eating pizzas!!! ^__^* #delicious! #poa kacizi ka mandizi!

after  eating, we turn back to Durian Tunggal, to give Paulo first scenary of Universiti Teknikal Malaysia Melaka. ( Malaysia Technical University, Melaka) . and then we go straight to  Pantai Marina ( Marina Beach) and then Pantai Klebang (Klebang Beach) to have some cool air and snap some pictures before send Paulo back to hotel.

10 Nov 2012
BBM status : Space Fair, Day 6, sleepy but excited!

today is Saturday. the day that we had been inform, there's party for us at The Milky Way hall today's evening, the day that we are going to face the real visitors. what i meant by real visitors is, there are visitors who not only ask question about our sections, but they gonna ask us about other section too, and forcing us to answer it like a Real NASA scientist, who had work for 100 years. the information are sometimes not clear, so we need to do some confirmation by discussion with the Scientist or teammates, however, they cant  accept our action, and shouting because need the answer very quickly. but well, we still can handle it right. they looks very satisfy too. :)

wow! today is very..very..very tired. but after duty, we have extra-lots-of-fun in the hall for the party. first, all the teams have to present their cheers. i was so excited to do the cheers, the hall suddenly turns havoc, with extra cheers by the ROBOTIC team *us* and the manager's team. Then, Miss Jaya give the cert to each facilitators, one by one, on the stage before we enjoy the meal. AWESOME. the foods are good!

night - i went to watch movies with my friends. however, i fell asleep in the cineplex. oh my. then we came back to hostel, and the guard dont let us to come in, so we have our sleep time in the car. ooh.


11 Nov 2012
BBM status : Space Fair Day 7, last day, Sunday..please be longer.

Sunday. please walk slowly. today is the last day of the Space Fair, the last day of working at Planetarium, the last day to be in team with the NASA scientists. aww...man! *tsk,tsk.. tears falls down * today is very busy. many visitors come to visit the Planetarium. the Curiosity stickers finished in very short time! the badge are out of stock too. all the members are busy describing and giving information to the visitors. i am very busy too. 

and time pass by very fast. its time for the planetarium to close the entrance door. but..still! the robots team are having greats plan tonight! haha. we bought Paulo to the Seafood restaurant near Alai. well, foods taste better under the sky! the memories that i cant never forget here, are watching Paulo eats rice with a fork. well, here in Malaysia, we eat rice using spoon, or maybe both of them. and Ashraf teach Paulo to open the shells by using one hand. every one are very excited to try it. hahaha. :D 

after dinner, we go to Jonker  Walk to recommend Paulo a hot dog restaurant. unfortunately, the restaurant is closed. as the weather are quite cold out there, so, to walk around, Paulo , sis Aida and me really have to go to loo. so we walk a long way to Casa Del Rio, a big hotel near to Melaka Cruise, just to use the toilet. hahaha. before go out from the loo, i have a great time trying all the stuff placing on the sink. it's nice! then, all of us gathered and sitting at the hotel's bar. but, you will suprised to know this, in all activities tonight, Paulo travels Melaka with a motorcycle! haha.. GREAT~

tick tok.. tick tok.. the clock is really rotates very fast! we send Paulo back to hotel then. but, its doesnt goes that easy. we sit at the cafe inside the hotel, and have the very last conversation. seriously, my heart feel very sad. maybe, there are so many fun we have together, so.. i feel uneasy about this. furthermore, i'm not good in saying good bye. we gave him some gift, and i give Paulo a card too.

then we make a very last cheer outside at the parking lot, before i drove the car away from the hotel. sad. it is very quiet inside the car. i can feel everyone's sad feeling. sad,yeah!

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now, there are no Space Fair, no robots team, no awesome mentor,Paulo. but tonnes of memories. i hope, i'll see Paulo again, maybe when he come to Melaka again, or maybe if go to California. hopefully.

i miss Paulo, i miss everyone in the team, the rover, boebots, curiosity's animation and the spaceship that we use to sit everyday. haha :D

these are some photos about us, but since i dont really have time to arrange it, so.. i just put some caption below. sorry guys!

NASA SCIENTISTS

back from left : Mr. Randii Wessen ( Comets Scientist) , Mr Paulo Younse ( Robotic Engineer), Mdm Margaret Sipple, Mr Gabriel Alvarado Marin ( Keppler's Mission ), Miss Amanda Rin Scherrer ( Rocket Scientist), Mr Phil Scherrer ( Sun Scientist) , Miss Jaya Bajpayee ( the team leader),  Mr Peter Falcon ( Clouds Scientist) and  Mdm Deberah Scherrer

 some facilitators with Paulo, Margaret and Gabriel on the opening ceremony

 asyilah and nabilah playing with comet i have made one comet too, photos will be upload soon.

robots team eating pizzas with Paulo

at the bowling alley

opening ceremony by the Mayor

robots team at Mars station, on the first day

robots team, playing bowling with Paulo

robots team brought Paulo to the Klebang Beach

THE AWESOME ROBOTS TEAM

robots team , Paulo and our favourite station

Paulo Younse and Hamizah 

on the last day of Space Fair 2012

*taking picture like Curiosity*

suka,suka,suka

aku suka.. bila aku dan die.. buat status umum, dan hanya aku dan dia tahu tanpa diberitahu, untuk siapa post itu ditulis. dan nyata, post kamu... membuat aku kembali senyum. jangan berhenti.

23rd October

its 23rd October.. YAAYY!

heyy whatsaapp geng..
assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..
i would like to start my speech with.. *bla bla...bla* okayy, this is not a syarahan.. tapayahle nak berpoyo-poyo sangat hamizah oitt.. baiklah.. kenapa aku buat entry ni?

takde ape..
saja aku nak ucap

Nur Thuraya Jalil aka Soya ( bukan nama sebenar)

yang ke 20.

selamat hari tua, dan selamat hari melihat bumi

selamat hari pertama turun kebumi.

selamat hari keluar perut

selamat hari pertama melihat, mendengar, bercakap

selamat hari pertama jadi annoying

dan

selamat hari pertama wujud di dunia realiti.

dan kewujudanmu adalah anugerah buatku.

sayangtapicakaptaksayang,

miezamohamed

note for you.

kamu...

sila JAGA DIRI

elok - elok

saya busy.. tapi saya tetap care

macam biasa

LOVEANDFAITH,

miezamohamed

teardrops.

my day start with a very annoying feeling, when i feel like very sinful towards my only The Almighty.. i dont know why, when i open up my eyes.. my heart feels like very sad, and im abot to cry.. *tapi.. sebab aku roomate atu dalam bilik tu.. terpaksa lah aku cover menggunakan ego aku yang meninggi itu.

without any inquiries, dan secara tiba-tibanya.. aku terasa malu untuk keluar rumah.. seolah-olah aku terasa seperti "nude" dihapan khayalak.. well, mungkin salah aku.. asyik mengikut kemalasan dan sikap 'takpe laa kot' aku redah je, dan melupakan apayang pernah diajar olah ustaz ustazah..dan KAMU.

aku tatahu kenapa, aku tamahu kekelas.. aku tamahu keluar rumah.. aku rasa panas.. aku rasa takut. sayu.n but then.. aku pergi jugak ke kelas..dengan diam membisu. memikirkan why this happen.. and what are going on.. aku..berfikir lagi.. mana aku yang dulu mencuba sedaya upaya untuk mendalami agama? mana aku yang kononnya nak jadi seorang muslimah? mana aku yang kononya nak memahami Al Quran.? manaaku yg kononya nak memperagakan fashion yang menutup aurah? WHERE IS THAT HAMIZAH??

aku mel;angkah sunyi. diam. aku memberontak. mata sayu. aku cuba daopatkan ayat suci al quran. tapi fon samsung aku di beg.. *tak bnoleh masuk dalam lab*, aku pinmjam handphone Iqa..classmate aku..yang tatkala *tatkala kau!* duduk disebelah aku.. yet. aku hanya sempat membaca al fatihah.. selepas itu aku rasa mahu mengekluarkan jernihan putih dari gedung air mata itu. dan, aku pula diberi tugas oleh lecturer, jadi..aku lekas lakukan kerja itu.


selepas pulang dari kelas... aku buka halaman mukabuku, aku check.. mana  tahu ade notifications,tentang lawatan yang aku perlu sediakan proposal nye. tapi belum sempat aku buka halaman itu, aku terbaca satu status yang mengubah hariku. yea, aku terlalu sibuk dengan hal aku.. sehingga aku terleka dengan keadaan dan kesihatan dia. rasa sesal, risau dan tangisan itu membawa aku berani menghantar message. benar. aku sangat risau. risauuuu sangat dengan keadaan dia. kalau lah aku mampu untuk pergi kesana.. aku mahu jumpa dia..marahkan dia.. agar dia tahu, aku sangat ambil peduli tentang dia. tapi... SIAPA aku.. siapa aku nak marahklan dia. yet. i've no right.. yang aku mampu, hanya bersedih dan menasihati dia. mendoakan dia cepat2 sembuh dan sentiasa menyokongnya.
yes.... aku akan terus begitu.


kemudian, hujan turun.. dengan keadaan bermatahari.. aku tahu..itu tanda pelangi akan datang.. aku tunggu pelangi aku. dan yea, aku ta sempat m,enyambut pel;angi.. dia pun tidak hadir. hari kembali sunyi, risau..hiba.

malam aku pergi ke kalas latihan silat.. seronok membuat buah.. aku terhentak kepala rakanku Asyilah..ye,die juga terperanjat dengan tindakan aku. yea, aku tahu..sakitkan? yea, aku tahu... kau naneskan..?

aku tidur.. dengan rasa bersalah.. air mata aku titiskan untuk kesilapan. ya Allah... sentiasalah kau bersama aku.. tidak aku tahu dimana mahu melangkah tanpamu. tidak aku tahu dimana aku berpaut tanpamu. dan aku pasti kau tidak [ernah melupakanku..seperti aku yang selalu melupakanmu..kau juga tidak pernah menjauhi aku, seperti aku yang asyik leka menjauhi kamu.


Allah, akyu mahu jadi seperti yang aku pernahcuba jadi itu semula. aku mahu jadi lebih sensitif dan dekat denganmu. aku mahu simpan impian untuk menjadi satu dari mereka yang kau kasihi. aku mahu menjadi mereka yang kau cintai. ampunkan aku, ya Rabb.
ampunkan aku Ya the Almighty.

aku bersujud mencari kamu. dan insyaAllah.. solatku bukan sekadar solat, ia waktu aku bersamamu. hidupku, bukan sekadar hidup, ia masa aku mengenalmu. doakau, bukan sekadar doa... ia ceritaku untukmu.. hanya engkau yang aku kasihi. kau lah Satu. <3 p="p">

dan hari itu, ialah... semalam.
semalam yang kelam.
hari ini, aku mahu jadi.. apa yang aku sudah janji.
insyaAllah.

keletihan.

baru je malam tadi habis minggu haluan siswa 2012/2013.
nanti aku cerita macam mana story die.

aku penat sangat ni.
jumpa lagi blog ku sayang.

lost of love,
miezamohamed

di-hack!

entry PENGAKUAN itu, bukan saya yang tulis.! tapi itik, adek aku!

pengakuan

saya merupakan manusia paling gemok..

THE LONELY

2am, where do I begin

Crying off my face again

The silent sound of loneliness

Wants to follow me to bed

I'm the ghost of a girl

That I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl

That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you

I sing myself a quiet lullaby 

Let you go and let the lonely in

To take my heart again

Too afraid, to go inside

For the pain of one more loveless night

Cause the loneliness will stay with me

And hold me till I fall asleep

I'm the ghost of a girl

That I want to be most

I'm the shell of a girl

That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Then you go and let the lonely in

To take my heart again

Broken pieces of

A barely breathing story

Where there once was love

Now there's only me

And the lonely... 

Dancing slowly in an empty room

Can the lonely take the place of you

I sing myself a quiet lullaby

Then you go and let the lonely in

To take my heart again...

uneasy

something wrong

and what you have to do

is FIX IT

by hook or by crook

and i fix it

with my special way

although it looks like very hard

for at least

i could smile again.

new chapter

meminta maaf 

dan 

memaafkan

new chapter dalam hidup aku.

InsayAllah.

grateful

# aku duduk di dalam masjid, menunggu imam memanggil untuk solat jemaah. entah kenapa tiba-tiba memori itu datang padaku. ya memori yang buat aku rasa nak menangis mengingatkannya. memori tanda sayang dan cinta Allah kepadaku. memori tentang  pelbagai hadiah dan peluang yang Allah berikan padaku. Ya Allah, di saat aku di uji dengan pelbagai masalah, diuji dengan permainan hati, di uji dengan kebahagiaan di bumi, di uji dengan matepelajaran yang susah, diuji dengan kekurangan duit, diuji dengan karenah diri, keluarga dan sahabat. kau telah hadiahkan aku bahagia yang lain. kau hadiahkan aku KAMU. tempat aku mengukir senyum yang tidak palsu. tempat aku mendirikan semangat yang jitu. kau hadiahkan aku DIA, tempat aku bergurau bercanda, kau hadiahkan sahabat-sahabat, yang tak pernah lelah melayan karenah ku, mereka yang tak lupa menasihatkanku, mereka yang melengkapi aku, mereka yang mengasihi aku. dlam susah atau senang, sama-sama berpuasa jika kekurangan wang, sama-sama berusaha untuk menyiapkan kerja kursus. bersama-sama berusaha gigih untuk mencapai matlamat. ya Allah, kau telah hadiahkan ku MEREKA, ibu dan ayah, yang walaupun sibuk dan kekurangan masa, mencari rezeki yang baik untuk keluarga. dan terima kasih ya Allah, atas kemudahan, kau pujuk ibu bapa ku untuk membelikanku sebuah kereta, yang aku tidak pernah terfikir boleh mendapatkannya.terima kasih atas ilmu-ilmu yang kau ikhlaskan buatku, ilmu yang aku pelajari di kelas, alhamdulilah..keputusan aku semester lepas, lebih memberansangkan.aku tidak pernah terfikir boleh mendapat setinggi itu. untuk ilmu persilatan, terima kasih Ya Allah, semakin baik aku melakukannya. untuk Ilmu agamau Ya Allah, InsyaAllah aku akan terus memperdalami apa yang aku sedang pelajari, apa yang aku sedang dididik. Ya Allah, terlalu banyak  hadiahmu untukku, terima kasih ya Allah. terima kasih. terlalu banyak sehingga aku tidak mampu mencoretnya. Ya Allah, aku bersyukur kepadaMu, hanya engkau yang satu. Aamiin..


PRAISED TO ALLAH.

love and faith,
miezamohamed

perkongsian

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

whassup uolss. ahahah macammana puasa, lengkap tak 15 hari? yooo, jangan le memonteng.. its not good, even adek2 kecil pun boleh berpuasa. okayy :)

ape yang aku nak kongsikan disini yelah, ape yang aku dah buat dengan not 50ringgit yang Papa bagi aku haritu. bukanlaa aku tak pernah dapat, tapi aku saja je nak kongsikan perbelanjaan aku kali ni, manalah tahu kot2 korang pun nak beli benda yang sama , kan dah tahu harga.

1. flipper slim slipper, RM 16.90

  

AKU TATAW KENAPA GAMBA NI NAK JUGAK JADI CAMNI!

okeh actually slipper ni asalnya pemberian kawan baik aku. Soya bukan nama sebenar nama dia. dia belikan aku slipper ni masa aku dengan dia keluar hang out menghabiskan duit di kotaraya. takde kota raya mende. dekat Dataran Pahlawan MegaMall je. oya beli slipper ni sama dengan aku, then dia kata slipper ni slipper kapel aku dengan die. disebabkan aku lupa nak bayar balik, so die buat keputusan unuk belanja aku slipper ni secara cin cai dan paksa rela.

unfortunately, masa aku pergi solat tarawih di Masjid Al Azim, Melaka aku TER hilangkan slipper ni. mulanya aku ingat ade org tersalah ambil. so, esoknyee..aku datang ke tempat kejadian, dan menanti untuk dapatkan slipper tu semula. lagi sekali unfortunate, bilamana, the 2nd day and the 3rd day pun aku tak dapat jumpa slipper tu. so, i guess someone is looking up, and stalking me. then die suka aku, lepastu die nak curik sayap aku *macam cerita2 org dulu-dulu* tak dapat, jadi dia curiklaa slipper aku. ok great. itu sahaja positive thinking yang aku mampu buat, supyaa aku ta sedih sangat. bila aku beritahu Oya, she sulked like babies. lepastu kata. "pergi beli yang baru, sama! ". so, ni lah barang petama yang aku beli hari tu.hahah :DD

2. Stoking SOXWORLD yg aneh, RM 19.90

aku dah lama perhatikan stoking ni.. sebab aku rasa its cool! ahaha. stoking ni die macam stoking biasa, tapi, die mempunyai ruang untu jari-jari kaki anda.. stoking ini ada pelbagai warna dan bentuk. tapi aku beli kaler hitam je, sebab....... aku nak guna stoking ni semasa pakai slipper.

entahlah, aku memang suka pakai slipper. dan macam semua orang tahu, slipper memang kasut yang tidak bertutup, jadi susah kalau kita nak pakai stoking atau socks biasa untuk dikenakan dengan slipper. bagi mereka yang mahu mula menutup bahagian kaki *aurat* , tetapi suka memakai slipper, mungkin gabungan slipper bersama stoking ini, membantu anda.

ini contohnye :-

aku sendiri tidak berapa pasti, adakah cara ini boleh atau tidak, sebab stoking itu akan membentuk seperti kaki kita. tapi seperti yang aku cakap tadi. its a good train for you girls! mungkin mula-mula susah untuk anda meninggalkan dunia slipper ni. dan mungkin, ini satu latihan yang mudah dan selesa untuk anda.. :)

aku tak pasti.

tapi aku still rasa it's a good train.

sahaja berkongsi.

LOVEANDFAITH

miezamohamed.

kelakar

kelakar kan.
sekarang aku tulis entry, aku draft.
aku tulis lagi, aku draft lagi..
sebab aku sibuk fikirkan orang,

terfikirlak aku.. blog ni aku owner ke bukan,
abehtu, nape aku nak takut plak..?

#demm.

new me.

stop observing, focus more on myself.

InsyaAllah <3

ramadhan ya ramadhan

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh, wa magfiratu, wa ridhwanuhu,

first of all, how are you guys? are fasting make you guys become lembik and tak bersemangat? come on, i guess.. this is not your first time, is it? so.. kite enjoy. its ramadhan again.

 alhamdulilah, i just had read my friend blog. she has something which i think, a very nice entry. you may read it through this! 

wish you all of luck, my dear friend. and this is for ya!

" fighting is enjoined on you, and it is an object of dislike to you, and it may be that you dislike a thing while it is good for you, and it may be that you love a thing while it is evil for you, and Allah know, while you do not know "

Surah Al Baqarah, 2 : 216

this is actually one of what i always use to live my life. so, i share this, mana tahu.. it would be one of your favourite too.

ok, lets come to my main point of writing this entry.

have a look to this picture. well, i dont know.. why it corrupted, until become like this. buruk,buruk!

 tadaa~!

okay this is my to do list, which i had hang it in my room for this ramadhan. the reason is only to give a very good peringatan to myself, as i'm having short memory syndrome, and bad in memorizing.. and need to be remind myself for thousands.

okay, part one!

PERFORM YOUR SOLAH.

well, i'm just trying to say that i will try my best to not only doing solah, but performing it to the almighty god. the word perform is not only doing it, but we have to do our best and perform it to our god. we should repair or maybe have some treatment of our way of solah. perform a better one. insyaAllah.

part two

COVER YOUR AURAH

i will try my best to cover my aurah. wearing scarf, a good one. long sleeve shirts, socks.. 

i'm really trying hard on this.

part three

RECITE AL QURAN

hurmm.. recite is actuall a product of read, understand,  get knowledge and practicing it.

and i hope i can treat my way of reciting. maybe i should go to tadarus class or listen to some audios.

part four

BERKATA-KATA YANG BAIK, JIKA TIDAK SENYAP

stop talking nonsence. stop merapu, meraban or anything. less talk, less pain. i dont really want  to note other people life. stop using harsh words. *i try my best* i just wanna have simple life, about me, myself and i.. *maybe with my future Imaam, kalau ada* and if i have nothing good to say, i prefer keep quiet.

part five

DENGAR KATA, JANGAN MELAWAN

well, seriously.. i dont really always with parents. but arguement are like water is my house, so, this month, i'll practice to not make any arguement with my parents. insyaAllah.

part six

DRAW SWEET SMILES 

yes, i am hamizah. and i sure can draw thousands of fake smiles. i'll make sure, i give the sweet one, for this ramadhan

part seven

JANGAN PERGI BAZAAR. BAZIR

i dont really eat like ikan paus at lautan  atlantik. so, why i should go to bazaar. furthermore, i am home alone instead. jangan membazir. amalan syaiton.

part eight

LESS MAKAN. MISI NAK KURUS.

haha.. this one.. read this entry.

misi cuti sem

part nine

DOA 

extra doa, extra time with god. extra amalan.

doa untuk my future, my studies, my families, my enemies, my friends, my health, the love ones. *kalau ade* and the most important...

for myself. :)

that' s it. i dont have more.

i dont want more.

i just want to earn more.

more from last time.

to be a better person.

and live with guide of the holy Al Quran

with my ONLY ONE. *kalau ada*

and, be the best.... and beloved servant to my god.

ALLAH SWT.

insyaAllah.

22nd July, 16:09

BAHAGIA 

yes, it is.

ramadhan al mubarak

salam ramadhan al mubaraq.. semoga saya, anda dan kita semua menggunakan ramadhan ini sebaiknya. dan semoga ia meninggalkan kesan dan memberikan kebaikan kepada kita. InsyaAllah. 

love and faith,

miezamohamed

cerita kedai kopi.

i am not blind. i saw you. i noticed you. hey there... text me, chat with me, talk to me. i am waiting. because i miss you a lot. and i know you too. i don't care if you not...i'll make you do. i don't text you, because i feel not so good. because i really want you to text me first. okay? i am still waiting.. tut,tut..tut...tut.. and you are still not doing anything. ya right! i'm dreaming.

henfon ke sekolah?

assalamualaikum.. baik! hari ni aku nak beritahu jenis2 henfon yang wujud kat malaysia nii.. 

yang ni blackberry bold, selain bold blackberry ade gak family2 lain.. tapi yang tengah top, blackberry curve, bold dan torch.

ni pulak iphone 4s, sekarang da kua iphone 5.

ni sony ericson cybershot.

ni samsung galaxy SIII yang aku na sangat ade..

ni nokia lumia 900

okayy kenal dah jenama2 henfon? aku ta faham laa.. apesal banyak sangat orang ta puas hati bila dibolehkan bawa henfon ke sekolah? nak panjangkan cerita apesal..take it easy.. mase sekolah dulu, bukan korang ta bawak lansung.. paling tak pun, bawak mase pegi kem, pegi lawatan.. kire bawaklah jugak pegi sekolah kan..? cume bezanya, lepas ni.. korg tayahlaa nak sorok-sorok.

macam kes aku, adek aku pegi sekolah, cakap balik kul 3, sekalai extend kelas smpi kul 5, tak ke cam badut aku tunggu kat depan pintu die..tanya acik jaga, acik jaga tataw.kan ke dah buang mase aku.. commonlah.. this is for our kemudahan actually. kalau korang rase tak selamat.. easy, dont let them bring. kerajaan bagi bawak phone ke sekolah.. tapi die tak cakap pun 'mewajibkan pembawakkan phone ke sekolah'. so, ape pun.. itu pilihan! 

tapi kalau aku, aku lagi suke adeq aku bawak phone, senang aku nak contact die. and senang die nak inform aku ape-ape. pikir positive. kalau rase ade keburukan yang lebih banyak. so just them bring it on the day yang perlu sahaja. korang lebih dewasa dari mereka. control theirs attitude.

ade plak cakap, naty ade yang bluetooth video lucah..benda2 ta senonoh, kamonla brade sista! give at least a trust to them. kalau dorg buat, then..baru ambil tindakkan.. 

small matter lah.

tapayah panjang2 cerita.

borak borak bosan

assalamualaikum and heyy whassup.. adoihh.. kenapa tetiba mood bosan aku ni datang menggunung plak.. jap,jap.. asal aku sakit kepala lak ni.. adeh. tolongla... ooo, maybe sebab tadi aku mengamuk sebab marah adeq aku kot.. haha, takdelah.. adeq aku tu, esok dah trial exam.. hari ni die still tak tahu ape tu surat rasmi, surat tak rasmi.. i mean, UPSR bape hari je lagi.. adehh.. aku bukan nak kata die nii bodoh ke ape..tak laaa! takkan aku nak cakap menda camtu..adeq kot.. die ni just sgt malu2 dalam mencari ilmu.. and so just you know, this entry i wanna talk about you, okay Ash?


frankly said, adeq aku ni kinda yang tak keluar rumah.. tahun 1 je, die dah diberi handpfone.. ps1 dan lap top sendiri.. so, die nii agak kearah games dan perkara yang sewaktu dengannya. jadi aku sebagai akak yang tak bertanggungjawab, mestilah mempunyai sikap tapuas ati.. aku darjah 3 baru dapat phone.. form 4 baru reti tekan2 lappy.. die darjah satu... wahhhh, gila moden adeq aku ni.HAHA.  dunia adeq aku ni mudah, die pergi sekolah.. die masuk kelas, buat hal die. die kate, kawan2 die tak suka die, sebab die gemuk. tapi aku cakap, kawan-kawan die tasuke die sebab die sangat skema dan lurus bendul. ahahha. *maaf,akak mu ini gangster Malaya time sekolah dulu * , then die balik sekolah pukul 3, pergi makan sorang-sorang, then buat homework, balik rumah dalam pukul 6 petang, solat asar dan mandi, 6:30 masuk kelas tuisyen. pukul 8 balik, solat magrib dan memulakan aktiviti harian seperti playing games, watching TV, texting my aunt atau kacau aku tengok muvie *sebab sekarang ni aku cuti  kan..* oleh sebab die ni menjalani kehidupan yang kebanyakkannya kesorangan, die menjadi semakin malu untuk bertanya kepada orang kalau tak tahu. dan mula dari situ, bile "tak tahu" tu di gunungkan,. last2 takde menda yang die tahu.. aku pernahla uji tahap kefahaman sains die.. lagi2 bab elektrik.. wahh, superb weyh.. *alaa,.. skolah rendah.. standard lah!* tapi kalau exam die tak dapat jawab.. when we ask why, he said: cikgu tak ajar pun soalan ni.. ini satu lagi masalah adeq aku.. ta boleh ke die aplikasikan ape cikgu ajar.. ahahhaha..


mudahlaa cakap.. sebab aku bukan die. kita tataw ape yang die rase. mungkin die takut untuk mencuba. mungkin juga die malas berfikir..atau die tataw nak buat keputusan apa. he needs guidance, dan terlalu banyak pendapat buat die rase tertekan dan tatahu nak pilih yang mana. he used to tell me once : ammar ta fahamlaa.. why kadang2 it's be on the right, jadang2 be on the wrong path.. hahaha.. see! semua orang cakap, tak sama.. macam aku.. aku pun kadang2 pening.. orang ni cakap mcm ni.. orang ni cakap tu plak.. cuma bexanaya.. what we are thinking about.. masalah, directly the same... 


aku ada jugak terai nak bagi tunjuk ajar kat adeq aku ni.. tapi it seems like aku kurang pandai menguruskan kanak-kanak..so, selalulah aku rase nak jerit lagi-lagi bila die setat menjawab. level darah aku, naik macam rase nak bertukar jadi hulk pun ade..tapi sayang kot kat adeq aku tu.. sebab aku pernah terfikir.. loneliness yang die hadapi sememangnya lebih teruk dan he needs me so.




so, nak ta nak.. you have to love me, okay ash! wajib~ ahahahha. :D


notakaki: beza umur aku dengan ammar ashraf (i call him Ash, he used to speak to me by name of Ammar) ialah 8 tahun.. mase die lahir tu, mase zaman kegimalangan aku, mase aku darjah 3. disebabkan dulu, aku takde adek beradik lelaki..dan aku plak sekolah pempuan, serta paksa aku menggunakan istilah I,YOU dalam perbualan bersama mana-mana kawan lelaki.. jadi, sehingga ke tahun ini.. aku masih menggunakan istilah itu, walaupun aku cakap dengan Ash. entahlaa.. cuba ubah jugak.. tapi,, naty jadi balik.. so..lantakla.. ade aku kesah! 


ok.. sebenarnye aku bosan.. aku tataw pun ape aku tulis ni..


love and faith
miezamohamed.

to be hamizah (Part 1)

i am me. always smile, always laughing, always non supermodel. doest like people call her ladies. do chills like teenagers,, well i do think i'm still teenagers instead. age doesnt matter to me. i use baby's powder. i do not have any facial wash. i love my teddy bears, i befriend with rainbow since i was a little girl. i  put the blame on mcdonalds everytime my weight gaining. *but i still cant stop eating it* i'm very open minded, i love my friends, i would like to get marry in my young age. i hates ants! i not good in playings with kids. i hate kids. never born as a good mother..*i'm scared, if one day i kill my own children* i only dress beautifully when i think i'm beautiful. i in love with Johnny Depp. i love musics, i learned guitar since 6th grades. i learned kompang, gamelan, trumpet, violin on my 1st former of secondary. i learned to hit the snale drums on my first sem of degree. i learn piano only until grade 3. i hate watching people fighting. i love martial arts. but i scared to use it. i dont cry, because cry make me feel im the worst one.*ok,i lie* i have experienced getting no 1 in class, and getting the last one in class. i look bossy in meeting.i still wear slippers,although my mom  ask me to walk 2km away from her.i buy t shirt everywhere, including kedai RM10. i love shopping, and money dont really loves me. i love adventurous activities..but since i'm gaining weight, i dont really go for it. ok, once again, i put the blame on mcd!

in my 3rd year of secondary, i'm be catch of homosexual relationship, just because i put my head on my friends lap, under the tree, after playing bola jaring. and still i dont care what peoples think, i think its cool enough to be me. and i do believe we didnt do anything wrong. i brought my handphone everyday to school, but i'm never get catch by prefect. in my final year of secondary, i always skip my class, and call my mom, said im okay, so she doesnt have to be worry. i sorok my bags inside the st johns cupboard before i run from class.*ok, the QC is going to run after me* , then i ask somebody to act like buang sampah with the big black plastic hitam, which is actually, inside are my bags. *ours actually, sorry teamsoulmates* i love camping and camping do loves me. and i really cant understand why people said that the jungle is cool enough.. i say it hot! *kipas,kipas* i cant be trusted if you use the word 'jangan' , its makes my curiousity gain to the high level. i'm hoping someone i like come to my graduation day with 3 big daisies. i do have thousand of problems, but i only think one which is not suppose to think first. my dad said im fat and i do look like Duck Tours. my mother said i'm very lazy, and hard to be control. my mom always talk about my past times. about my sickness since i was born, and my mistakes, that i've repents without people knowing it. so, i sing a song in my head everytime my mom nagging. my mother loves me. so, she's quite over protecting me. my mom know nothing about car, but she's an engineer of Wafee. She knows everything, and what to do to wafee. my mom cries when i am going to PLKN. because she thought i cant do those activities there.

i am very easy to get fever, so.. dont be so close to me, A+ people. i cant remember peoples name, although not their faces. i can remember song lyrics but never chemistry. i love gadgets, but not all gadget loves me. my younger sister call me stupid if i get my maths B. my youngest brother used to call me Freak. once , i thought singers are at the konti, everytime the songs are on radio. i hates light,so i keep my room without any lights. only some glow in the dark stars. and the light from phone and lappy. i hate people ask why i talk a lot. i cant stop talking, if i do, i will feel alone. yes, i'm afraid of feeling to be alone..and when it comes, i hear a very high pitch sound in my ears and i will scared. so, dont ask me. if you feel annoy, just smile, i'll understand it. i really believe on my own heartbeat. i dont do my homeworks, except for my bahasa melayu, because the teacher treat me very well, and i dont want she sad because of me. she is the one who make me want to enter UM. i still wanna be pilot, even my mother dont let me to. i never bored to isi those application forms, and gets email or offer letters to be anpilot cadet. i know, i've hundreds of it. *okayy, minus 80lah..* i'd celebrate my valentine day with my maths teacher when i'm form 4. *okay, once again i'd lie.. the whole class are celebrating it with him* i turn the musics loudly if i have to get ready faster, i dont know, but the music seems to help me to be extra faster a -lil-bit.

i love to hear when people talking, because sometimes they said something that really helps me to live my life. i wish i can forgive all people every night before sleep, i dont wear any make up, i only use the eyeliner, if and only if, i miss my girls at school. because its a way of remembrance. like we had promise before. dont give me food as  a gift, because i do treat give as the things that i have to keep nicely until the end of mine. i still keep the ferero roche which had been given on my 17th birthday from my beloved friends. i still keep those flowers given by my Best Friend. i love flowers, daisy is the most. but i hate planting. i dont know why i'm writing this. i'm just getting tired and bored, so t least, there's something i can do. instead of waiting, something impossible to be happen. emm. dear god, i know you listening my sigh, and i know sighing is not for me, ok, to be continued. malas dh datang menemani aku disini.

dont know why!
love and faith,
miezamohamed.