kepastian dalam pemakaian

assalamualaikum

untuk kawan2 yang mahu melangkah satu step kehadapan,dalam meningkatkan mutu jati diri.

khas untuk mereka yang baru- baru dalam memperagakan pakaian muslimah seperti saya. apa saya lakukan, untuk memastikan pakaian yang saya pakai setiap kali keluar rumah adalah pakaian yang baik buat saya?

kebiasaannya saya akan keluar rumah waktu pagi, dalam pukul 9 untuk ke kelas. selepas mandi, biasanya saya akan mengambil wuduk, dan  elepas itu mengenakan pakaian. jadi elepas mengenakan pakaian, sebelum keluar dari rumah, saya akan menunaikan solat sunat duha.

jadi apa yang saya lakukan, aya mencabar diri saya untuk melakukan solat sunat duha dengan tidak menggunakan telekung. well, untuk mendirikan sesuatu solat , kita kena memastikan pakaian yang di pakai menetapi syarak dan hukum al quran.

lagipun, bukankah dikatakan, pakaian yang baik adalah pakaian yang boleh dipakai untuk solat?
jadi di sini saya belajar memastikan pakaian yang dikenakan cukup baik untuk saya. walaupun tidak setiap hari saya berjaya melakukan misi ini, tapi ini cara saya untuk berjinak jinak dalam pemakaian yang baik.

rasa

alhamdulilah.. berkat kasih tuhan, semasa Festival Gamelan di UKM hari tu. sempat aku bersua dengan rakan sekelas di matrik, Farid.

saat krik krik itu sangat mengujakan, walaupun kami berdua mengaku tataw ape yg nak dibicarakan. Farid cakap.." lama nya ta jumpa mija.. rasa tataw nak cakap ape.. rasa speechless. "

aku akui, hubungan rapat dengan rakan-rakan matrik itu agak luar biasa. kami hanya sempat kenal dalam tempoh satu tahun, well to be exact.. its only 10 months, lepas ditolak cuti yang tak berapa nak banyak..

peliknya, 10 bulan itu sebenarnya tak lama.. tetapi.. aku boleh merasakan chemistry antara kami semua amat berbeza. ahli kelas kami pulak..sangat unik.. even ade perasaan tak suka, marah.. geram, sakit hati.. kami tetap unite. kadang2 tu wajiblah ade rasa kecil hati, rasa menyampah, rasa rasa lain lagi.. tapi itu semua in sya allah sementara. ini pada pandangan aku lah... berbeza gila dengan kehidupan di unversiti dan disekolah dlu.

ade rakan2 yang rapat dengan aku, sanggup pula menceritakan masalah mereka padaku, berkongsi cerita, berita.. well, hubungan yang sekejap itu memberi seribu satu pengalaman untukku...

dan ape yang aku paling sayang sekali zaman matrik ni, aku kenal erti sebuah kehidupan. di sini lah saat dimana aku di jatuhkan, di uji dengan pelbagai masalah serentak.. dan aku bangkit semula to face the reality. hidup ini tak mudah, dan tuhan TAHU apa yang terbaik untukku. syukur, DIA hantarkan mereka yang membimbingku. terima kasih Allah untuk rakan-rakan yang banyak mengajarku erti kehidupan, dan banyak mendorongku dalam mencari semangat diri. terima kasih rakan-rakan.. hutang budi dibawa mati. :D

p/s: lagi tak boleh belah.. zaman matrik ni, aku sempat kenal Oya untuk satu semester sahaja. dalam 5 bulan maybe. dan hubungan kami semakin hari semakin sayang. ukhwah fillah abadan abada! semoga tuhan merahmati persahabatan kita, seperti DIA merahmati persahabatan Abu Bakar r.a dengan Muhammad s.a.w. amiin.

jangan

jangan ingatkan padaku..
tentang sejarah semalam
kerana itu mengundang tangisku


jangan ingatkan ku
kisah perit duka kehidupan
kerana aku telah terlalu tabah mengharungi segala

jangan ceritakan padaku
apa yang pernah lalui
lupakan ia sahaja menelan bertahun umurku

jangan katakan peritnya perasaan
mencipta sebuah kasih bukan sekali cubaan

perit dulu masih aku rasakan
tangis dulu masih aku sisipkan

kasih ini miliknya tuhan
ketenangan ini tuhan ciptakan
JANGAN!
jangan diceritakan lagi
aku tak mahu mendengarnya

aku tak mahu mengetahuinya

cukup! cukup setakat ni.
aku lemah mendengarnya

tuhan, aku takut masih berdendam
bertahun aku hidupkan sumpahan dendam
bertahun aku hidup tanpa belas kasihan
bertahun aku hidup tanpa secubit rasa kasih dan sayang

kerana tuhan
dendam itu mati kerana kasih dan sayang
sakit hati itu pergi tanpa maaf diungkap

kerana tuhan
aku tenang
aku dan dia semakin tenang
tiada lagi persengketaan
aku semakin cuba menerima keadaan

dan aku tahu, sehingga ajal
ia satu fakta yang tak mungkin diubah
dan aku akan sayangkan dia
kerana aku tahu jauh dihatinya
dia jua mengasihi.

dia tetap disitu
dia tetap waliku.

some questions to answer.

my friends post this up, and asked me to try. so.. lets try this out!

Name: me (make it simple, as this is gonna appears in google.) 
Age: 21
Birth date: 25 April
Present Adress: Earth, maybe Jasoom? 

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
What was your:
1)Last beverage: sarsi kordial
2)Last phone call: mommy 
3)Last text message: Yarca
4)Last song you listened to: Royal ( Lorde)
5)Last time you cried: -secret-

Have you ever:
6)Dated someone twice: nope!
7)Been cheated on: cheated?? yah.. i guess.
8)Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope & never had!!
9)Lost someone special : YES
10)Been depressed: always
11)Been drunk and threw up: Never try!

First three favorite colours:
12) purple
13) chocolate
14) black
Have you:
15)Made new friends: Yup..
16)Fallen out of love: err.. i guess NO. 
17)Laughed until you cried? : Absolutely
18)Met someone who changed you: YEAP!!! <3 span="">
19)Found out who your true friends were?: yes
20)Found out someone was talking about you: yes!
21)Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list: NOPE!

General:
22)How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: I DONT KNOW. maybe less than 100??
24)Do you have any pets: NO
25)Do you want to change your name:  YES. 
26)What did you do for your last birthday: worked at Hotel, ate KFC with syila without brought my wallet.
27)What time did you wake up today: 6.30 am :(
28)What were you doing in midnight last night: i have my solid mechanics II test, went for gamelan training
29)Name something you cannot wait for: i wanna do my umrah. 
30)Last time you saw your mother: last sunday, we ate together
31)What is the one thing you wish to change about your life: AL QURAN
32)What you listening to right now: owl sounds, from my farmville.
33)Have you ever talked to person named Tom: No
34)What gets on your nerves right now: i gonna have my Numerical Method test tommorow evening =.="
37)What do people call you: miza, which give a mean of berseri-seri. :D
38)Relationship status: Engineering Student.
39)Zodiac sign: Taurus
40)He or she: She.
41)Primary school: SK Convent Infant Jesus (1)
42)Secondary: SMK Infant Jesus Convent
43)College: Malacca Matriculation College, Technical University of Malaysia
44)Hair colour: grey maybe 
45)Long or short: SECRET.
46)Height: 164
47)Do you have a crush on someone: candy crush? YEAH.
48)What do you like about yourself: my handwriting
49)Piercings: none
50)Tattoos: none
51)Righty or lefty: Righty

Firsts:
52)First surgery: YEAP
53)First piercings : no
54)First best friend: yeap
55)First sport you join: Badminton?
58)First pair of trainers: paintball
59)Eating: when the time to eat!!
61)I am about to: study my Numeth
62)Listening to: nothing at all
63) Waiting for a miracle to occur? :  every single seconds...
64)Want kids: never think till so far yet..
65)Get married: YEAP!
66)Career: priority 

Which better:
67)Lips or eyes: eyes
68)Hugs or kisses: hugs
69)Single or Taken: Single
70)Older or younger: huh?
71)Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72)Nice stomach or nice legs: Stomach
74)Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75)Trouble maker or hesitant: nor both

Have you ever
76)Kissed a stranger: Never
77)Drank hard liquor: Nope
78)Lost glasses/contacts : no
79)Kiss on first date: No
80)Broke someone's heart: i guess ya..
82)Been arrested: No
83)Turned someone down: maybe..
85)Fallen for a friend: maybe

Do you believe in :
86)Yourself: emm..this is very hard.
87)miracles: ya
88)Love at first sight: No
89)Heaven: yup
90)Santa Claus: maybe?? hahaha...
91) Kiss on first date: No.
92) Angels: yes! 

okayy, im done!

pashmina itu pilihanku

setelah beberapa tahun berkecimpung dalam arena bertudung, akhirnya aku dah buat keputusan untuk memilih pashmina sebagai tudung yang paling sesuai untuk aku.

1. tak nampak renyuk
kain pashmina biasanya lembut. walaupun  boleh renyuk, ia sukar dilihat dengan mata kasar. oleh itu bahagian renyuk boleh diketepikan..boleh lah aku skip waktu nak iron tudung =,="

2. saiznya yang besar
saiznya yang besar dan agak lebar membuatkan ia senang dibentuk mengikut pilihan fesyen yang korang suka. kalau aku, fesyen ni datang tempat ke sepuluh pun takpe. yang penting, memenuhi ruang bahagian yang perlu diselindungkan.

3. tebal
ya! ramai yang kata tak suka pashmina shawl sebab ia tebal. dengan cuaca yang panas ni.. boleh berasap kepala.. haha. entahla, mungkin aku dah terbiasa. sebab tu aku okayy kot?

 4. tidak jarang
ya.. ini main utama kenapa aku pilih pashmina.. sebab dia tak jarang. yelah, selalunya kalau tudung bawal atau shawl yang lain, kebanyakannya jarang. bila jarang kita  si pemakai yang tak selesa. jadi kalau pakai pashmina, konfem tak jarang.. jadi kita tapayah pikir dua tiga kali. ada jugak yang berpendapat, laa.. boleh pakai inner neck, ke pakai syria ke kat dalam tudung bawal yg jarang.. lah, itu kan choice. sekarang aku tengah cerita pasal choice aku... understand? haha

5. murah
harga pashmina adalah dalam range rm10-15. kadang2 kalau kita meronda di jalan TAR atau tempat2 yang sewaktu dengannya, mungkin kita boleh dapat dengan harga yg lebih rendah. :)

jadi, mungkin dengan itu.. aku membuat keputusan untuk menerima pashmina sebagai tudung yang paling sesuai dengan aku.
yah, right!

17 September 2013

i saw him.
i met him
i talked to him.

i asked him.
he answered me.
i smile to him, he replied me.

he is amazingly in front of me.


its been years, its been months.
we become friends, and to me he is the one.
its like a dream, and i get one,
to see him once again
is the real what i want

he is seriously in front of me.

i wished for so long, i prayed for so hard
to meet him again
its everything that i want

i wished he was here, i wished he was fine
i wished he will be by my side.
every day and night

its like a dream, that comes true.
to see you sitting like before you do

you speak.
you advice
you always support mine.

and i thanked Allah for the date and the day
i thanked Allah for you, and your heart
i thanked Allah for your support and advice
i thanked Allah for your presence in my life


let Allah be the one between our friendship
let Allah be the one i depends everything
i want you to glow.
i want you smile.
let Allah be the one by my side
no A, no B, no C and no D
let Allah be the only one i depends on
until the day he announce everything.
let Allah be the one for me to put up all the strength
to let me always keep waiting.

thinking.

when you were a young girl, attending school. do you have a friend who acts boyish?
i have and she is now being so in love with his fiance.
wearing hijab ( alhamdulilah) and making sweet status
said i love you for thousands, being loved.
she turns to a girl, in just a second.

while attending school, do you have friend who keep changing boyfriend?
i have, and she now attracted to one man who always be in her heart.
she happy with him, and really wanted to marry him.
she turns to be loyal in just a second.

in school, you sure have havoc friend, who always make noises
and cheer up your life.
i do have her.
but they are now being extra focus in studies,
wanted to be a great accountant, she says to me..
and if we met, i make jokes around.
she just smile, instead putting jokes on me.
she turns so adult in just a second.

do you have a friend who you put her first on everything?
i have.
she still with her boyfriend that she knows since schooldays.
she amazed him, the boy adored her.
she is texting all over the day, and maybe one single text to friends
are considered as wasting.
in one second, she turns to be so stingy

there are so many changes. and i am still asking whether the world or they themselves change everything.

me?
i am still act boyinsh if i wear tshirt and jeans. i try to be so polite if i met someone older, i make noise. i laugh on everything. i put friend first, after family. i go and by things which you said it kiddy, i borrowed my friend colour pencils. i smile when im sad.i hate everything attached to lovestory.  i am trying to be loyal toward Allah Ya Rabbi.

you?
 you put everything on him. e v e r y t h i n g.

and
am i the only one who never change?
tell me.

MSU 2610

to a friend of mine
it has been 3 years.
yeap, maybe more than that.

to a friend of mine
who now so called
somebody i used to know.
lets take this eid-ul-fitr
as the chance to reunite
and make up our relationship.

MSU 2610.
it has been 3 years.
yeap, maybe more than that.

what has happen
is one of mistakes
that we did in our life
and maybe we are too young
too dumb too realize.

i am finding you.
if you're there.
hear me up.

i am truly sorry.
your apology is accepted.
i already move on.

growth older and mature
be more realistic.


just come back.
when u think its time.

err.. can i?

peeps! can you just focus on my latest entry, never read the old me. well, i'm growing up!

the cekadak part of me

well, i believed that every people was born to have some weird attitude that the like to do. maybe its about lifestyle, maybe about colour. maybe about everything. some are being too dicipline in everything in their life. i listed 10 of my craziness, but i believed the lived for thousands.

and as an human, being weirdos is something natural for me. well, in choosing colour. my favourite calour is purple, but in buying things, i prefer dark chocolate. some people come and asked me.. " hey, why dont you buy purple calour? doesnt it your favorite colour?" SERIOUSLY, I HAVE NO REASONS. i just loves purple. and in buying everything i want it to be in dark chocolate.

secondly, i am very strict sometimes. i cant stand with people who do not knock the door before enter. this is how my family trained me in the house. but somehow, i cant manage to get the same feedback from all. so, every time people come terjah me without knocking the door, i feel like slapping them on face with my right leg. usually if it was my siblings, i asked them to go out and knock the door back until i said the word masuk.

third, maybe some of my friends know this. i am not eating any kind of fish. this is because i cant get along with the odour. yes! you gonna say that every single raw materials will have the " hanyir" kind of odour. but the thing is, i only cant get along with the fish odour. its just brings me to vomit up thousand times. not only the odour, the taste of the fishes are also not on the line with me. i dont know why, but it is just me. fortunately, there are types of fish that i can eat sometimes, it depends on how the cook was. example : siakap, bawal, pari and tenggiri. satu kemajuan kan! hee.

forth, as im not eating those fishes, i also not interested in mutton and beef. the taste are different. i dont really like it. lebih-lebih lagi, if it was a soup. jadi, maka dengan itu.. the only foods that i can accept in what ever conditions sekalipun is chicken meat. some sort will said that the chicken is having more odour than fishes. say you what, i accept chicken meat, as they accept me. i am never thought that the chicken meat was hanyir. to me, it is as what it was. so, if i am home.. my mom have to cook chicken meat everyday. what was you thinking? i'm cekadak? just so you know that , it was the entry title! haha.

as i was born in urban families, i am not interested in traditional foods, apatah lagi the ulam-ulaman thingy. some will said, ' haiyo! very hard lah you.. so many things you do not eat! ' but then, from my view.. i think i am so much simpler than others. i eat only chicken (fullstop) takpayah fikir panjang2.. takpayah fikir what i want and what i do not. tapi not lah only ayam that i eat, me also can eat some seafood such prawns, crabs, cuttlefish, octopus and what ek..em..macam dah takde. haha. no fins, no shells.

fifth, one pantang larang in my life. NEVER EVER OPEN UP MY BAG! i hate people open up my bag. if you need something inside, ask me for it. dont take it, unless i asked you to do so. when i was in form five. one of my friend opened my bag, to have my book. dahla nak copy kerja org, bukak pulak beg orang. so, she has to choose whether i punched to her face once or, i am all over quiet, not talking to her for the whole day. c'mon guys! i am not so hard to find, wait for me.. ok?

sixth, i am not really good in cooking. but if i am the cook, dont pissed me off. its either you EAT or you not. i dont care. if it is not good, then dont eat. if you're hungry, and it is not good, plus you're having lazy bumps to cook the another one.. just shut up and EAT! thank you.

seventh, i am not good in saying hye or waving goodbye. i dont know. it just me. so, if you're seeing me anywhere.. just call me, or say hye. or appears infront of me and said.. ' nampak aku tak?'  if you dont do that, then dont say any words that prooving me a bad guy. (guy) hampa nak cakap aku sombong ka, apa ka.. tapi hampa pun tak buat apa2, then it is so unfair to put the blame on me. alone. youre not putting any effort on saying hye jugak, so why dont put the blame on you,yourself? hiargghhh.

eighth. yeah.. dalam dunia kita kena terima hakikat yang semua orang pernah  buat salah.. yet, SEMUA ORANG. but when you did something not good at me, and you really feel uneasy with it. the first word you have to say is SORRY. lupakan explanation yang panjang berjela atau causes behind the scenes, or what your opinion. just say sorry first! sincerely, if i did wrong to other people pun, im gonna said sorry first before i give my sweet long explanation or excuses. seriously, the words SORRY and Thank You DO mean a thing to me. TERIMA KASIH.

ninth? i have a car, i named it Wafii. its old car, yeah i know.. we've been together since i sem 1 in university. and at the times, he was 2 years old. just one thing, please hands off from my car. macam mana hands off yg i maksudkan is, i dislike people who intently ketuk2 or goyang2 my car. my car is seriously not a musical instrument. please behave. secondly, handle my car parts slowly with hands.NOT FEET. i classified it as no manners. well, futhermore.. it's others kan.. respect lah! thirdly, i dont really like people drive my car.. especially LELAKI. why? because, if you do so.. then my future husband had already lost one special treatment from me. HAHA. find out, me cekadak? well, read the entry title again!  * ade plak aku future husband ek? ade, ade.. belum masanya~~ HAHA. *

ten, lastly! akhirnyaaa... * dah takde idea dah! *
ape ek? hmm.. if i choose you to hear my story.. just hear and maybe you can give opinion. never ever talk bad about the person i told you.. when i am mad, let only me yang talk about them, either bad or good.. dont interup on saying how bad they are. they are also my friends. cukup aku yg marah dia, dont mix up. just listen!


hahahhaha.. thats what i think jelah kot. no ideas. it takes me 3 days to write this entry.
but then, yokatta its now finished.
overall, cekeadak is what in people attitude,
i believe every people do have things that make them up
dicipline.

lost of love.
miezamohamed.

mana

lama ta nampak

dengar cerita dah tukar kerja

dah ta kerja kat tempat lama

ta kesah, rezeki itu kan tuhan punya

usaha tu hak kita

cuma.. 

aku tertanya..

MANA UNCLE?

rumah baru.

habis dah tahun dua, kena pulak pergi short sem iaiatu melengkapkan subjek amalan kejuruteraan. oh! kalau di universiti lain, short sem ini satu pilihan, tapi di utem.. ia kewajipan! untuk memastikan setiap pelajar mendapat nilai tambah yang baik dan nampak berbeza dengan pelajar universiti lain, jadi terpaksa lah subjek amalan kejuruteraan ini dilaksanakan. 

okay, done bab memuji muji perihal universiti yang telah membuat keputusan mengambil aku sebagai pelajar, sekarang aku nak beritahu..adat lah kan.. kalau belajar kat utem ni, tahun 3 kena duduk luar. jadi maka dengan itu, terpaksalah aku duduk di rumah sewa.

kami duduk di satu rumah due tingkat yang nampak luas, tapi bila kami masuk ia jadi.. err sempit?  mungkin kami ni jenis belagak kaya nak rumah sebesar suria klcc agaknya kot? ke sebenarnya kami ni saja je memenuhi ruang pentas yang disediakan supaya nampak penuh dan pack! well, ternyata kami berjaya memenuhi ruang yang duisediakan!

rumah tu, kami duduk 8 orang. semua perempuan, in sya allah. walaupun, tak semua berperangai macam perempuan. haha. dan, rumah aku boleh dikatakan lengkap ber-chef yang pandai masak. memang layak bebenor nak masuk program masterchef. sayangnya, aku ni pulak yang banyak pantang larangnye. adeh =.="

kesian pulak kat memeber aku yang nak masak, asek dok pikir tentang aku boleh makan sesuatu itu ke atau tak.. well, to be truth.. aku mencadangkan supaya diaorang masak sahaja, kalau aku tak makan then aku boleh goreng telur.. tapi mereka rasa tak sedap pulak..

lah.. dalam keadaan yang serba kekurangan ni, tambah pulak short sem mana lah datang duit nye. diantara jatuh dari langit yang gelap dek kerana jerebu, ataupun, jumpa tertanam kat tepi rumah, kawasan perompak simpan harta karun. so, jika salah satu dari itu kami tak jumpa, nilai duit dalam beg kami, adalah dalam purata rm10 ke bawah! 

untuk berada 2 tahun dalam rumah yang sama.. kenalah tolak ansur.. jadi aku tanak lah menyusahkan semorang.. kalau boleh aku nak upload sabar dan banyakkan berdoa. ya, itu yang aku mahu.

kena saling memahami antara satu sama lain, cheh.. macam ayat nak nikah pulak! 

so, untuk mengelakkan rasa bersalah aku kerana telah mengorbankan cuti 3 bulan ni, aku terpaksalah melayan jiwa tengok wayang selalu. eh? tak,tak.. sekarang kan tengah banyak cerita best.. tu yg aku rajin tgk wyg tu. hikhik.

dan puasa kali ni.. aku harap..

ku mengharapkan kan ramadhan kali ini penuh makna, agar dapat kulalui dengan sempurna.

the band boy.

can i just say that i miss you a lot.

i keep watching our videos.
i recognize our best relationships.
me, you and her


i keep viewing our photos.
you cheer me up,
you give me thousand reasons to smile

i keep thinking about you,
your smile, your laugh
everything that manage to have

i keep recognizing you,
and said..
hey that's my best friend
which i thought i loss him

i believe she can accept you
so do me too.

i believe she can forgive you
so do me too.

i knew everything , she had told me.
but i am not angry, i just want you to be with us..
together.
like before/

lagi satu cerita seronok..

ni kes yang aku lansung tak boleh pikir.. adakah benar adakah tidak..

nak dijadikan cerita.. aku sebenarnya kurang ready nak amek ujian sijil rendah ni..
bukan sebab nak kerek kebenda.. aku dahla tak hafal step, salu on-off sebab duty2 lain...
tapi aku selalu ingat.. yang silat ni satu medan ukhwah islam.

masa ujian teori, aku hanya sempat datang, kelas yang diadakan di Kolej Antarabangsa Yayasan Melaka. tu je. kelas lain memang aku ta sempat pergi.. nak hafal memacam, aku ni.. ade otank yang agak perlahan perjalanannya. ade lah tahap turbo, si siput yang bella cerita tuh.. nak kasi lebih real, buku nota teori silat pun aku takde, apekan lagi ilmu-ilmu sejarah? hihihi.. ade jugaklah aku janji nak study sesama gn member aku.. tapi sudahnya, kami bantai tido.. err, TAK! aku bantai tido, so.. bila tengok aku tido.. member aku yang setia ni pun join sekaki.

so, masa dalam perjalanan ke ujian tu, aku suruh kawan aku dok ulang pantung 8 rangkap tu.. dua kali dia dok ulang2 pantun tu kasi aku ingat.  aku ikut perlahan-lahan, nak masukkan jiwa dalam pantun tu.. malam tu, naahh kau! soalan bahagian akhir, 1 page, semua tentang pantun.. GILA!
nasib baik, kawan aku bacakan.. kalau tak... ta mungkin aku hafal~~
thanks,puteri!!

test kali ni, utem hanta 11 orang.. 9 lelaki dan 2 perempuan.. aku dengan puteri je perempuan. so, kalau aku ta dtg, puteri sorang.. kalau puteri ta datang, aku sorang...untuk ujian praktikal, aku adelah sempat dtg 2 minggu kelas, cmtu.. aku mahirkan buah2 kemahiran. ade beberapa hari, puteri tak datang, jadi aku terpaksalah sorang.. mungkin balasan aku, sebab selalu tinggalkan dia sorang kot..

hari sebelum test, aku panggil kak idora gn puteri untuk teman aku hafal semua buah yang ada.. ya allah, berkat kesabaran diorang ngajar aku, aku tak sangka yang aku mampu hafal semua buah yang ada..alhamdulilah..

esoknya, aku saja datang lelambat sket, supaya takdelah neves kemain.. tapi.. ape nak buat, neves tu datang tanpa diduga, ohh, ta sangka..

bila nama aku dipanggil.. abang hensem tu suruh aku check no ic dan nama aku, pastu die suruh aku selawat bebanyak dan ingat wajah guru dan ibu bapa.

dan dia pergi, u turn balik ... khas untuk cakap..
" err.. tahu tak kes tadi? "
*kes budak luka, kena 6 jahitan..
aku, mengiyakan, dan dia kata lagi..
" haaa.. tu kaunter awak letu.."

OMG.. merah putih, biru kuning muka aku masa tu..
silap-silap boleh jadi bendera malaysia agaknya..
tinggal berkibarlah, bekibarlah je..
 bila aku kepucatan tahap maksima,
ade satu abang chubby ni dtg kat aku..
die tanya kenapa aku pucat..

dengan segala hormatnya, aku beritahu dia..
" kite takuuuttt... "
dan die jerit..
" takut selain Allah itu syirik! "
aku pun cuba menormalkan perjalanan darah
die pesan aku suruh selawat dan banyak ingat tuhan..
ini satu ujian, bukan depa datang sini nak bunuh aku.. yetak..
asal aku nak takut sangat ek?

so aku masuklah dengan lafaz bismillahirahmanirahim.
dan lalui lah 23 serangan tanpa henti itu..
ohh, mengujakan..
walaupun aku cemas, neves kemain dan kekok..
takde satu pun aku jatuh atau tergelincir..
semua berjalan dengan baik..

dan sekarang...
keputusannya sudah keluar..
dan alhamdulilah, aku lulus..

tapi sayang..
aku ta boleh konvo..
sebab aku ade paper hari tu..
agak kecewa..

:(

ok, bye..

LOVEANDFAITH,
miezamohamed

one night.

 i thanks Allah for his presence.

 i love him just the way he is. 

as friend, as teammate, as connector, as mentor

 as number one important person after mom and dad.

he is not my boyfriend. he will never be, 

boyfriend is not what looked by me

but he always a boy, and my superb friend.

he is the one, which my time really wanted to spend.

understanding, soft-speakers, funny

active, don't speak nonsense

always supportive

always

be the best one for me.

his eyes, his heart

his willing

only for Allah he'll performed everything

how could i find someone 

to replace him?

he never be replaced, never be 

he looks perfect for me

how i seriously hope he was in the same place with me

but Allah knows better

better that me, better than him

better than us

for the phone call.. i thanks Allah for this.

for the care and support.. i thanks Allah for these

and for Allah sake, thank you for always be

the one for me

to feel alright

and the support for me

to get

survive

In Sya Allah.

31May 2013 

22:40 - 23:14

dah tahu dah nak pilih yang mana?

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~
hye kawan2 semua..
di kesempatanm ini mahu le aku mengucapkan
selamat pulang ke kampung halaman untuk mengundi!! yeay~
(err.. macam ucapan raya pulak..)

komen aku?
err... aku belum mengundi lagi tahum ini, walaupun umur aku ni sepatutnya sudah layak diberi peluang memangkah undian. tak..tak...
bukan pasal aku tak daftar.. tapi sebab aku baru je meningkat ke alam dewasa dalam minggu lepas.. '
so, na undi apakah?

but since i am 21 right now, i think the political views is really my part right now..
yang bagusnya, aku masih lagi neutral dalam perkara ini.
tidak taksub dengan memana parti politik
dan tidak terlalu terikut dengan ajakan dan kata-kata mereka yang lebih tahu.
aku lebih suka menilainya sendiri..

bagi aku, satu penguatkuasaan dan kaedah pelaksanaan perlukan transformasi yang baik untuk meletakkan negara kita nun jauh ke puncak kemajuan..
dan dalam masa yang sama, sistem-sistem yang digunakan, perlulah menjalankan sedikit reformasi untuk memastikan TIADA berlakunya hal-hal yang kita tak mahu seperti korupsi dan tuduhan melulu tanpa bukti kukuh.

dari sudut pandangan aku, aku kurang memercayai bukti-bukti gambar yang telah diedit. well, some will says that.. ' this is so true..' or maybe ' this is without editting..'
kayyfine! percaya sangat~~
dalam dunia serba canggih ni, aku percaya perkara ini boleh terjadi
cuma terpulanglah kepada sesuatu pihak itu untuk meneruskan atau tidak tindakan yang tak bagus ini..

tidak aku nafikan, kerajaan yan terdahulu amat bagus. belum pula kita pernah mengamlami masaalah rumit yang tidak boleh diselesaikan. kecuali masalah Lahad Datu. jadi, aku rasa kerajaan akan datang boleh meningkatkan tahap keselamatan negara, seiring mengkaji semula sistem kewarganegaraan yang diberi.. adakah warganegara diberi percuma, untuk meraih undi? semoga ia bukan seperti itu.

dalam masa yang sama, aku kurang setuju dengan satu pihak lain, yang mahu memberikan bnanyak keperluan 'percuma' kepada rakyat.. sincerely, we dont really need it. yes! mungkin  ia nampak seronok, tetapi untuk mengekalkan ekonomi negara kita yang sudah mencapai kepada ' negara membangun', ia barangkali sangat mustahil. jangan risau! jika kita  sudah mencapai negara maju yang diilhamkan dalam Wawasan 2020, in sya Allah... kita mampu beri keperluan percuma kepada rakyat.. ini sekadar pandangan aku lah.. aku pun baru je dalam arena politik ni. salah silap, harap diampuni ya! negara kita bukan negara free lancer, itu yang pasti, :) daripada kita membelanjakan duit yang sedia ada, lebih baik kita jana duit untuk keperluan akan datang. kita kena ingat, semakin hari.. minyak kita semakin kurang.. bahan mentah semakin mahal.. dan akan datang, kita mungkin akan kehilangan sumber, dan di situlah duit yang kita jana itu boleh digunakan.. itupun.. kalau tidak berlaku ape2 korupsi atau lebih dikenali dengan istilah ' makan harta rakyat..'


adalah satu belog aku baca dua tiga hari ni.. die menyokong untuk satu pihak itu menang supaya boleh memberhentikan tuduhan-tuduhan seperti ketidakbagusan sistem SPR, kes undi hantu, kes dakwat kekal.. dan paling penting.. memberhentikan 'tunjuk perasaan ' atau 'rusuhan' yang kian menjadi2 di negara kita.

perihal tunjuk perasaan ni, pada mulanya aku kurang bersetuju dengan cara mereka yang melakukan perhimpunan yang melibatkan ramai penduduk dalam kesusahan dan mengakibatkan banyak kecederaan. tetapi pehimpuinan yang 112 tu, aku agak bersetuju, selain dari[pada mendapat kebenaran, dikawal pihak berkuasa, perhimpunan ini juga berjaya membuka mata kerajaan sedia ada. macam yang aku katakan tadi... mereka juga ada salah silapnya.

yang terakhir dari amatur aku, biarlah kita dipandang buta politik, asal kita jangan buta parti politik.
undilah mereka yang boleh memimpin, mengetuai, membawa kita kearah kemajuan negara dan kemajuan modal insan, bukan membuang undi mengikut parti yang mereka bawakan. undi ahli politik, bukan parti polittik.

dan sangat tidak salah, kita mengundi untuk seseorang yang tidak sama parti dan pandangan kita, yang paling penting.. mereka boleh m,embawa negara kita kepada yang terbaik :)]

sanagt amatur aku ni~

selamat mengundi guys!!
miezamohamed.

pada suatu sosej dahulu..

berdasarkan kata-kata hikmah sang penglipurlara.. terjadinya satu kisah dahulu kala, yang menyentuh minda rakyat jelata sehingga ke hari perkhabaran ini berlaku.... 

opppp... ok dah~ kurang2kan lah merepek miza oit.. kau 21 tahun dah~.

okayy, masih kah kau ingat... sekuntum bunga itu di tapak tangan ini, ia menjadi layu.. lalu ku gengam ia menjadi debu.. masihkah kau ingat, masihkah kau ingat~~

kalau pasal bunga layu pun kita boleh ingat, how on earth kita boleh lupa tentang tragedi pertandingan makan roti sosej itu?

kisah nye bermula begini, pada hari kejadian.. dalam keadaan serba kekurangan... aku pergi ke pesta konvokesyen U aku. dengar khabar nye, ade satu pertandingan makan roti sosej akan dijalankan.. ewah~

syarat permainan ialah.. bayaran yuran rm2 akan dikenakan. jadi aku pun berfikir... rm2, pastu makan banyak2 roti sosej.. ok good! aku nak masuk.. supaya aku dapat berjimat, makan makanan tengah hari dengan harga hanya rm2! 

tetapi apabila sampai ke tapak pertandingan, rupanya... lahh!! makan satu roti sosej je~ rugilah.. sebab harga roti sosej usually rm1.80, jadi maka dengan itu aku pun malas nak masuk.. selepas beberapa kejadian pelik aneh dan rasa tak puas hati berlaku.. aku pun membuat keputusan untuk masuk jelah pertandingan tu. 

pada masa tu, kawan2 aku dah kenyang sebab baru lepas hirup sup daging, tak silap aku.. jadi, tak semua jadi join pertandingan tu. bila perebutan berlaku... kami dimarahi oleh pegawai U yang berada di sana.. disebabkan hal itu juga.. kawan2 aku tanak masuk dan, mereka tidak memadam nama aku.. 

semasa syarat pertandingan dijalankan, aku terfikir yang aku baru saja kehilangan rm0.20 kerana masuk pertandingan ini.. jadi aku arah kan aim aku kepada kemenangan.. lalu aku mulakan dengan taktik NAK MENANG!.

ketika pertandingan berlansung.. aku makan sehabis boleh.. sampai roti tu memang dah nak habis... disebabkan aku malu untuk mendengar ayat : patutlah menang.. tengoklah SAIZ. or dahla gemuk, no satu PULAK TU..

jadi aku menurunkan gear aku, supaya aku menang no 2. tetiba, ade satu kakak tu menang no 1. jadi.. aku pun lajukan kunyahan.. so sad when tetiba there is a thin girl, kate SIAP! and she gets second. aku pun mempercepatkan gigitan, and end it with 3rd place.

sebab itulah aku menang... kalau cerita malu tak malu.. sure aku kate.. malu gila weyh~

tapi we are in U life~ we takes adventure, we go for challenge.

jadi aku pun mengambil tindakan menggila masuk pertandingan ini..

THATS IT!

make up my mind

there are sometimes my brain stop working positively, with the effect of several problems that i cant really know how to solve such as :-

less carry marks
bad result in test or quiz
cant understand the topics,or maybe the whole courses
cannot manage to do the working calculation for certain question
dont have idea to do the paperwork
and so on..

and sometimes, i blew my mind and thought of this :-

"hamizah, you really have chose the wrong course! "

 OR

" engineering, hamizah? are you sure? "

OR

" hamizah seriously you are not born to be an engineer, nor an engineering student.."

OR

" yeah, hamizah... always.. YOU are the one that keep ruin your own life.. "

and whenever i came back home, and have a leisure time in my bathroom.. i make up my mind.

LIKE HOW?

when i was a kid, in age of maybe in standard 5 or six.. my dad bought me a shower -water heater. at that time, this was so popular.. until i am very very, very too excited to have it in my bathroom. but one day, my sister did break the shower head handle. and to make sure my dad did not turn green, i make my way, day by day to make sure the shower will not fall down. i had done almost everything, just to make sure Papa do not know about this. Failure is here and there. always around me.

at last, i used my own hairband and tied it properly to the body of the water heater. and i succeed! but however, papa get to know this when we move to the new house at Cheng. that time, i was already form two! see, my first project stays as secret for 3-4 years! hahah.

so, in our new house.. *new masa tulah,* i hang the water heater at my own bathroom. and again tied it as what i have done before. and, until now.. it still remain unchanged, although i am going to turn 21.

and maybe this is what i call a BAKAT TERPENDAM that i never knew, i do have.

and the best thing is

by looking on it, i'll say

" hamizah, you done it yourself.. without any knowledge.. when you were 11. now, lets try to figure out what you can do with knowledge.. "


case solved


LOVEANDfaith,
miezaMohamed

i need you now..

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now 

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

the one i adore the most

i believed, there is one person that you really wanna have a deeper conversation with. and sometimes, you just used to a adore a stranger, and sometimes you are just can be obsess with someone you never met face to face. yet, i adore Dr M since he was our Prime Minister. his critical thinking of finding the problem solving was seriously awesome. i remember when he told us story about why we do need the Penang bridge? and, how the KLCC can manage to help the country urbanization.

lately, im enjoying reading Doktor Umum. i ask my dad bought it for me. at first, i prefer it to be in English, but then papa said that he wants the malay version. so, dahla duit orang..  kita ikut jelah..

***************************************************************************

there is a talk at Dewan Besar today. it is so called : Bicara Negarawan. i was too excited to come, but then, i have FaSaSi to be complete. sadly, it dont manage to finish early. 

this talk start at 2pm, and our FaSaSi ends at about 5:30pm. just after i finish the FaSaSi, i directly go to the Dewan Besar, to meet Dr M.   BUT UNFORTUNATELY, the time when i arrived, is the time where all the souvenirs are given from Melaka, and UTeM TO DrM.

the banner: BICARA NEGARAWAN

TUN DR MAHATHIR BIN MOHAMAD

susah payah, then i line up and waiting for him to pass thraough. that time, i saw many people ask for signature on the "House Doctor" book. teruslah i feel like.. oh miza!! why dont you bring the book here!!!!

there are so many people.. and there is a very rude girl.. tolak2 orang, until my right side terkepit and tersepit. i cant really stand straight, semorang bertolak-tolak..

and so, disebabkan itu, i just can have 2 picture from my iphone. cepat2 click! 

 #1

 #2

this one, i curik from my friend! hehe

so thats how my day was. hoping to come to ceramah, ta dapat.. signature pun ta dapat.. gilaa ah! kecewa dengan sakit ditolak je dapat..

so, maybe if there any ceramah dia, i wanna come with the book pulak.. 

when? dont know..

love and faith.

MIEZAMOHAMED

seniorisme.

well i hope there is a word conduct to show how senior and how arrogant i am being to show my seniorisme. HAHA, ok lets lupakan a bit on how i make this word wujud, but the thing i want to story now is the feeling of being a senior.

in malay martial art class: alhamdulilah, i have Tamat (END) my practical class, and we are now waiting for graduation. to ensure we always remember the steps, the class will be still on until we grad. sometimes, they do mix us up with those at Asas (Beginner) class and the second level class.. the feel of entering this class, after you manage to complete everything, was just amazing! nak dijadikan pula, we all starts to wear baju uniform rasmi, its put us a thousand miles far away BETTER than the beginner class. say who? we are maybe better in knowing all the steps, but i am personally having problem to remember the sequence as i always skip the Tuesday's practical class.

but then, the kids are looking forward and look HIGHER at us, everytime we do some react or step, even it is so damn simple, we are going to get a little " whoaahhh" from them. and there, the seniorisme came! once, i punch my junior chest, and i feel like i have did it so badly painful. so i make my apology. unfortunately, the girls make me change my mind by saying: takpe, dia( tunjuk kawan sebelah dia) tumbuk lagi sakit.. as a senior with an arrogant seniorisme, i feel like challenging with her statement, so..in the next round, i give her  a FULL BLAST from my right hand. result : she kept her mouth shut! bagus!! *clap,clap!\

secondly, our gamelan team are having newcomers. most of them are from my class. so, apparently, going to gamelan practice and academic session do not give me a differ now. remember i said i was playing Saron Baron for the team? yet, i am now changing on Bonang Penerus now. this is again because the seniorisme. they are so many people, and they need the easier instrument to play cool and get in the music before being matured with this traditional malay's music instrument. as the number of these ketuk2 instrument ta cukup, so i have to move on Bonang. <3 again="" diri.="" menguasai="" p="" seniorisme="" there="">
thirdly, serious matter! i skip attending meeting with PNC, because the meeting is so mengejut and i cant handle to come that night. by the way, on meeting, PNC says that,, my paperwork gonna be the best one, and will be the grand event of our college events. with all the compliments given, there's a seniorisme again come!'


seniorisme maybe looks like arrogant or lebih tepat to call it kerek gila with additional of sombong. but as long it does  not troubling, it is actually nothing. dont h=get me wrong, i dont and i wont be arrogant, i am only my best in doing everything.


sleepy and bye for now.
miezamohamed

MALAS NAK DRIVE.

pernah tak korang ade perasaan malas nak drive, kadang2 tu jauh sangat perjalanan.. kadang2 tu dekat ciput je. tapi memang malas menguasai diri kamurang..

mama ajak aku teman dia pergi kedai accessories kereta. tapi aku malassss sangat nak pusing sampai malim yang bukan jauh sangat pun dengan rumah aku.. cam dalam 5- 10 km je macamtu. tapi, aku rasa maaaalaass sangat. aku suruh mama amek aku dirumah, naik satu kereta je. tapi mama kate, kalau dah sampai rumah, dia kena pusing pusing balik, macam tak best. so, dengan kemalasan dan sifat manusia aku yang nak mengamuk disebabkan malas.. aku pandu ke kedai itu jua.

sampai di kedai tu, sebaik sahaja aku keluar dari kereta, aku nampak.. seorang ibu, mengelek seorang bayi, memimpin dua org anak kecil, di belakang nya pula ade lagi 2 anak lelaki yang mungkin baru sekolah rendah, melangkah dang menapak, menuju ke mana aku tidak tahu.. tapi, aku cuba rasakan.. ya! mungkin mereka dah lama pun menapak, mungkin dari rumah.. mungkin menuju ke stesen bas, atau mungkin berarah ke sesuatu tempat. cuaca benar panas, terik.

aku mula berfikir, sudah diberi kemudahan dari Allah, tetapi aku masih tidak mahu bersyukur. Astagfirullah.

bak kata Hazama dan Amy Search dalam Simetri :

Sudah susah mahu yang mudah

Sudah mudah jangan bikin payah

love and faith,

miezamohamed

again?

when i am in matriculation programme , on the day our Muet result being announced. my english lecturer come to our class and asked *with a very fierce face*

" who get Band 1?"
>>>>> no one raise their hands

"band 2?

>>> maybe 2 people did raise their hands.

band 3?

>>> some of them raised their hand

band 4?

>>>> most of people raised their hand

band 5?

>>> no one again

6?
>>> no one again,

then my lecturer become so angry and said :

" whoever feels like reseat, please reseat.. Band 4 is so called cukup cukup makan! "

i feel so bad that day, and believes i can do even better than that. so, i wanna to take this again.
yeap, and tomorrow is the day. speaking test is on 7:30 am, i feel so scared. with this kind of english level.. and how bad i speaks english right now, i dont think that i can do this.

i have tried so many times, but i just can feel the same vibration comes like lightening. oh God, please help me.

my ambition is to get Band 5, but then.. i believe, i cant.

i just too afraid right now, and please...do speak english to me, to cover up my english level.

i really need this.
please.

in sad, afraid and alone
miezamohamed

back to school

heyy there

assalamualaikum. whatsapp yaw! 

adeh, maka dengan ini, hari ini merupakan Jumaat, 20: 34 malam, waktu dimana aku sedang menghadap komputer riba dan pelbagai persoalan bermain dalam fikiran aku.

oh well! lagi 2 hari rupanya aku akan berdaftar untuk semester baru. semester yg jauh lebih mencabar dan jauh lebih memeningkan kepala hotak aku ini.

dan seperti yang telah diuar-uar kan, result semester lepas sangat mendukacitakan, tetapi... YA!!! bagi aku grades itu tidak lagi penting, yang penting ialah 

USAHA.

YE.

jadi nak dijadikan cerita. belum ape-ape lagi, aku dah tahu.. sem ni aku akan sangat gila dengan 5 killer subject yang kebanyakannya adalah subject mekanikal yang lansung tak beri muka kat aku, even aku buat muka seposen sekalipun. 

sem ni, aku akan berjuang untuk thermodynamics, fluid mechanics, mechanic machines, microprocessor, technical english, hubungan etnik dannnnn mechanical lab yang sangat meng-enjoy-kan.

aku percaya, sesiapapun... mana-mana pelajar engineering dari mana mana universiti sekalipun.. akan menyukai subject lab daripada duduk menelaah di bilik kuliah yang mengantukkan itu! 

Krr Krr

itu lah tempat betendang betumbuk untuk menguasai teknik-teknik nak menjadi seorang dokter pakar besi.

jadi maka dengan itu perlulah aku mula start packing barang untuk dibawa pulang ke hostel. walau bagaimanapun.. cehh! aku tidak tahu barang yang perlu dipack terlebih dahulu, jadi masa aku habiskan untuk berfikir.. err, cemana..ok ke?

pencil pemadam pen pembaris pe-apa lagi...*eh.. semua stationaries start with P kan.. haha

perlulah dikumpulkan sebab aku dah lupa, kotak mana satu aku letak pencil case aku.

gara gara terlalu taksub nak balik rumah untuk berhibernate bulan lalu , semuanya aku pakai campak di dalam kotak.

jadi sekarang, untuk process pre-pack, aku mulakan dengan unpack semula barang2 sem lepas.

dan ini, memakan masa lebih dari dua hari.

di mana dia, barang-barang saya..

barang barang saya, ada di dalam kotak..

ohooo... tolong carikan, tolong carikan..

tolong carikan ketipung payungg..

Krr Krr

nampak tak bear kat atas ni..

bear ni.. kalau nak hibernate..

dia akan makan banyyyaaaakkkk bannnyyyyaaakkk..

lepastu gosok gigi guna fresh and white.. dan hibernate sepuas hati.

bila bangun, tahu2 dah kurus....

haihh..

jikalau akuuuu..

aku makan banyaakkk... banyyaakkk

dan hibernate.. bila bangun..

insyaAllah, TAMBAH satu lagi bilangan X kat size aku. hahaha. 

maka itlah perbezaan aku dengan bear, selain persamaan kami berdua sangat comel.

okbye

faith,

miezamohamed.

mama?

everyone should know about the new release horror movie, named : MAMA. i heard many comments about the movie. some said that the movie is seriously scary, some said.. ok-oklah.. some are not answering question..
Q : hows the movie?
A : ohh beb, you need to watch this!

Krr Krr.

one night, on the dining table. just after we ate our dinner.

me : i want to watch Mama lah, tapi 18 tahun keatas.. baby ta boleh tgk~~ huhu
(* me- always watch movie with my lil brother >.<")

mom : cerita ape?

me : cerita hantu.

mom: cerita melayu ke onputih?

(belum sempat jawab soalan mama)

sis Ul : siapa belakon?

dak ha : *HENTAM* jennifer lopez!

mom : ohh!! melayu~~ ? ( terkeluar dgn tak sengaja dan terlebih excited)

me : jennifer lopez memang melayu!

mom : pfttttttt!! ( i guess )


faith,
miezamohamed

berterabur.

well i guess, everyone here believes that the Securiforce vans do have money inside their carboot. me too!

once, i went tesco with my mom..
and my mom saw a securiforce van facing us, while we are walking across the road,
then she said...

" biar..biar dia langgar kita.. nanti semua duit beterabur.. kita boleh kutip! "

my bro hear what moms bubling, then reply

" kalau yg terabur tu duit, kalau yang terabur tu organ kita?"

everyone laugh for the word organ! hahaha..
then my bro continue his positive speech..

"masa tu, org lain yg dapat kutip duit, orang lain yang kutip organ kita..."

this is not funny, but i write this for
my brother.

haha.

miezamohamed