again?

when i am in matriculation programme , on the day our Muet result being announced. my english lecturer come to our class and asked *with a very fierce face*

" who get Band 1?"
>>>>> no one raise their hands

"band 2?

>>> maybe 2 people did raise their hands.

band 3?

>>> some of them raised their hand

band 4?

>>>> most of people raised their hand

band 5?

>>> no one again

6?
>>> no one again,

then my lecturer become so angry and said :

" whoever feels like reseat, please reseat.. Band 4 is so called cukup cukup makan! "

i feel so bad that day, and believes i can do even better than that. so, i wanna to take this again.
yeap, and tomorrow is the day. speaking test is on 7:30 am, i feel so scared. with this kind of english level.. and how bad i speaks english right now, i dont think that i can do this.

i have tried so many times, but i just can feel the same vibration comes like lightening. oh God, please help me.

my ambition is to get Band 5, but then.. i believe, i cant.

i just too afraid right now, and please...do speak english to me, to cover up my english level.

i really need this.
please.

in sad, afraid and alone
miezamohamed