i am me. always smile, always laughing, always non supermodel. doest like people call her ladies. do chills like teenagers,, well i do think i'm still teenagers instead. age doesnt matter to me. i use baby's powder. i do not have any facial wash. i love my teddy bears, i befriend with rainbow since i was a little girl. i put the blame on mcdonalds everytime my weight gaining.
*but i still cant stop eating it* i'm very open minded, i love my friends, i would like to get marry in my young age. i hates ants! i not good in playings with kids. i hate kids. never born as a good mother.
.*i'm scared, if one day i kill my own children* i only dress beautifully when i think i'm beautiful. i in love with Johnny Depp. i love musics, i learned guitar since 6th grades. i learned kompang, gamelan, trumpet, violin on my 1st former of secondary. i learned to hit the snale drums on my first sem of degree. i learn piano only until grade 3. i hate watching people fighting. i love martial arts. but i scared to use it. i dont cry, because cry make me feel im the worst one
.*ok,i lie* i have experienced getting no 1 in class, and getting the last one in class. i look bossy in meeting.i still wear slippers,although
my mom ask me to walk 2km away from her.i buy t shirt everywhere, including kedai RM10. i love shopping, and money dont really loves me. i love adventurous activities..but since i'm gaining weight, i dont really go for it. ok, once again, i put the blame on
mcd!
in my 3rd year of secondary, i'm be catch of
homosexual relationship, just because i put my head on my friends lap, under the tree, after playing bola jaring. and still i dont care what peoples think, i think its cool enough to be me. and i do believe we didnt do anything wrong. i brought my handphone everyday to school, but i'm never get catch by prefect. in my final year of secondary, i always skip my class, and call my mom, said im okay, so she doesnt have to be worry. i sorok my bags inside the st johns cupboard before i run from class.
*ok, the QC is going to run after me* , then i ask somebody to act like buang sampah with the big black plastic hitam, which is actually, inside are my bags.
*ours actually, sorry teamsoulmates* i love camping and camping do loves me. and i really cant understand why people said that the jungle is cool enough.. i say it hot! *kipas,kipas* i cant be trusted if you use the word
'jangan' , its makes my curiousity gain to the high level. i'm hoping someone i like come to my graduation day with 3 big daisies. i do have thousand of problems, but i only think one which is not suppose to think first. my dad said im fat and i do look like
Duck Tours. my mother said i'm very lazy, and hard to be control. my mom always talk about my past times. about my sickness since i was born, and my mistakes, that i've repents without people knowing it. so, i sing a song in my head everytime my mom nagging. my mother loves me. so, she's quite over protecting me. my mom know nothing about car, but she's an engineer of Wafee. She knows everything, and what to do to wafee. my mom cries when i am going to PLKN. because she thought i cant do those activities there.
i am very easy to get fever, so.. dont be so close to me, A+ people. i cant remember peoples name, although not their faces. i can remember song lyrics but never chemistry. i love gadgets, but not all gadget loves me. my younger sister call me stupid if i get my maths B. my youngest brother used to call me Freak. once , i thought singers are at the konti, everytime the songs are on radio.
i hates light,so i keep my room without any lights. only some glow in the dark stars. and the light from phone and lappy. i hate people ask why i talk a lot. i cant stop talking, if i do, i will feel alone. yes,
i'm afraid of feeling to be alone..and when it comes, i hear a very high pitch sound in my ears and
i will scared. so, dont ask me. if you feel annoy, just smile, i'll understand it. i really believe on my own heartbeat. i dont do my homeworks, except for my bahasa melayu, because the teacher treat me very well, and i dont want she sad because of me. she is the one who make me want to enter UM. i still wanna be pilot, even my mother dont let me to. i never bored to isi those application forms, and gets email or offer letters to be anpilot cadet. i know, i've hundreds of it. *okayy,
minus 80lah..* i'd celebrate my valentine day with my maths teacher when i'm form 4. *okay, once again i'd lie.. the whole class are celebrating it with him* i turn the musics loudly if i have to get ready faster, i dont know, but the music seems to help me to be extra faster a -lil-bit.
i love to hear when people talking, because sometimes they said something that really helps me to live my life. i wish i can
forgive all people every night before sleep, i
dont wear any make up, i only use the eyeliner, if and only if, i miss my girls at school. because its a way of remembrance. like we had promise before. dont give me food as a gift, because i do treat give as the things that i have to keep nicely until the end of mine. i still keep the
ferero roche which had been given on my 17th birthday from my beloved friends. i still keep those flowers given by my
Best Friend. i love flowers, daisy is the most. but i hate planting. i dont know why i'm writing this. i'm just getting
tired and bored, so t least, there's something i can do. instead of waiting,
something impossible to be happen. emm. dear god, i know you listening my sigh, and i know sighing is not for me, ok, to be continued. malas dh datang menemani aku disini.
dont know why!
love and faith,
miezamohamed.
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