5 years to-go

22/3/2016: i write this.
22/3/2021: i'll read it again and compare


....it's been time i have been a lecturer. this end of year, i will go for Aussie to further my PhD. 4 years on being a lecturer, is actually a very tough routine. life must go on. dont ask about engineer career, never! it breaks even deeper than before.

i live with mom and dad, as a non-married lady, i prefer to stay with them. we live happily in my own house. yeah!a bigger house.. and can said that most of my pocket money are invested towards the house. the big house are always in silent, until somedays kakak and dakha bring their children here.


kakak married to a man, son of papa's friend. kakak doesnt like him at first. but now they live happily. that what people said Tuah Ayam nampak di kaki, tuah manusia siapa yang tahu. They have 2 children. a boy and an annoying princess. yeah, she's annoying. i hate her the most. hahaha

dakha married to her best friend, they live happily with 3 kids. All boys. looks very alike. ebi love play with them. sometimes, ebi bring them watching movies, they call him "Uncle Ebi". ebi is now still studying his degree in engineering. we dont really know that he is actually quite good.

soya.. a best buddies, she's getting busy nowadays. she's just deliver a new baby. the 3rd. She married after she finished her degree. tak sangka, a friend who she admire a lot, does love her a lot too.  they're unique. soya looks better now. zero worry and no longer serabut. she's a teacher. she's teaching in a polytechnic. all her dream come true. we dont really dating now. she's staying outside melaka, and if dia balik kampung pun.. we dont really meet each other. i mean, she does having another commitment too. and we cant expect life will be as simpler as we're studying.


saujanas, syila marrying her boyfriend, almost three years this month. not yet have kids, they tried a lot. takpelah, maybe it's not the time yet. harap syila can be sabar sedikit. bella married to mus last year. kahwin jugak dorang tuh. she's waited him so long kot. and now they living in Japan since Mus has his commitment there. betu2 jepun dah minah bella tu sekarang. Nora, last time i met her, it was Hari Raya. she's now are no more like before, she become talkative and happy.. she married to her classmate. aku dah agak dah.. budak ni layan dia extra sangat.. aku dah agak dah..mommy now have one child. lelaki.. very cute. very takative. very annoying sama macam mamy. baby? she;s still single.. tulah kau biij, memilih sangat nak muka acah acah rangga.. akhirnya serangga pun takde nak melekat kat kau bijj kahkahkahkah.. haziqah is the first one getting married among us. she's having two kids now. both are girls. so sweet. last time i met her, is on her wedding day, selainnya aku usha dalam insta je. andd insta is still up now taw. masih lagi digunakan sebagai alat mengapelod gambau2 lagakan manusia.. hahaha. masyi is not yet marry, but will be mrrying her boyfriend end of this year. apalah, aku nak pergi aussie kau sebok nak kawen.. pleaselah cepatkan untuk aku.. cannah? haha



i have lost-contact to most of my friend. kalau ade pun, yang masih layan twitter. sometimes aku rasa bosan gak sorang.. tapi sometimes, aku rasa semak pulak beramai.. papa plan so many weddings for me, but i objected all of them. i happy to be alone, for now or for at least another 5 years. maybe