malam sebeblum kita semua jawab paper dynamics,.. i believed im too stress with those chapters yang aku tak faham lansung. aku rasa zero.. tanak datang exam.. rasa damn! then i make a call to mommy.. sebenarnya aku dah kol mama dah before tu, i dont know why.. aku rasa nak call lagi. then mama tanaya aku tido pukul berapa.. then i said maybe i'll not sleep that night.. mama kata, eh.. jangalan macam tu. she's all of sudden become very worry pulak aku tak tidor.. padahal, aku memang selalu tak tido kat rumah.. disebabkan hanyut dengan movie-movie menarik, dan game-game yang tak boleh berhenti main.. entah kenapa, after that.. suddenly aku terus menangis ya amat tak boleh berhenti.. air mata aku berubah menjadi air terjun..nahhh..mencurah-curah ke ladang gandum.. aku pun katakan pada mama.. : ma, ja rse ta boleh buat lah ma... with air terjun yang deras menuju ke kawasan kertas yang aku baca..
i was crying like whatsoever disitu.. memalukan, dahla zana gn TE ade kat kawasan kejadian.. disebabkan the things happen very suddenly.. so i feel very shameful. then my mom said: you're too stress.. have some sleep first, then baca lagi.. if you wanna feel tenang, and throw all the down part.. go and so some solat hajat, and recite the al quran.. i am just like, haa.. ok.. em.. ok.. because i still cant stop my air terjun from coming down.
actually i believed im not too stress, but aku rasa macam tak pernah masuk kelas, and tataw apa-apa tentang this subject.. that's why i feel so bad. but some talk with her.. i continued my study session, dengan berjaga sepanjang malam.. with my friend, Zana. as today is acually her birthday. (020192).
i fell asleep after dawn, and after wake up.. i feel something different, which mean.. ' c'mon Miza, lets do this!' so, i take my bath, shampoo my hair.. *feel extra cool after shampoo my hair..* and start to review those notes and hints. then i said to zana.. i'm gonna do this, with blood or tears, i want to do this.. even if i cant answer it.. i want to finish it, and after, i dont wanna know about it again..
with Allah by my side.. in sya Allah/. its gonna be okay. *i said*
around 5, i go to my room at level 4, then i have some chit chat with nakama- SYILA. then, i take my bath, solat asar.. iron baju, then wait for azan magrib.. after magrib solah, i change my cloth, and go downstairs to bilik zana, to take my things.
unlucky me, they had go for exam, and the door is locked. all my things are inside, and i dont have any card, to swipe to open the door. sangat gelabah ketika itu, dahlah lambat untuk ke dewan exam, then.. kena locked pula.. after using syila's stuff.. then pintu berjaya dibuka..
dan maka dengan itu, sampailah beta lambat ke dewan besar utem itu.. dan tergesa-gesalah beta ke tempat duduk..
once i open the booklet, i said : zana mesti boleh buat! that's it! lepastu, i try my best to answer the question..which is i believe it is wrong and cant get marks. tapi atas kepercayaan dan angan-angan nak jadi professor cilik yang pandai derive equation sendiri.. maka jadilah coco crunch, satu equation dan jalan kerja baru yang lebih gempak dan serious power dari Hibler itu.
dan even if my marks are not so good, im happy sebab dah habis, and im thanked my mom because always there for me. now, i am in front of TE lappie, online and feel bad inside. but then, i believe.. my problems are not bad after all.. because allah knows better than me.
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